I can't do if people can act mean and think my disagreeing is a fight.

Wars

WWI&II were a Caucasian war.

The Vietnam and Korean Wars were Asian.  I still don't know to this day what they were for but have asked my dad.

The Revolutionary War was probably the biggest war of all I can think of.  Most people think it's the Civil War.  Funny how people can get away with being mean to African Americans / "black people."

People both condemn people for WWI and WWII and encourage it to hurt people like me.

So, what can I do to be a good citizen?

So, My Fair Lady is on...

...is she attractive for her figure or her ethnicites/race?

We used to dream of doing things to test things like this movie.  We were supposed to, but I guess not?

Let's see if you can walk in a straight line.

Who is worth it?

So, I am blaming people for ruining it for me, too.

Let me catch this thought.  It seems that Late Boomers are putting Generation X and sometimes particularly me under pressure to say if I don't accept I'm not worth much or something ... I have to do that "or else."

You know, I do realize that ... that people treated me badly and are making sure I don't improve so they can look better.  You know what I mean?  How people dote on some babies and not others but in unfair ways?  Well, if you are mistreated but good, you are like me.  You aren't attractive, but you're "right."

Let me, please allow me to, explain something to ask for help.  I accidentally said something to someone who said something like that to me first.  I even said I was, like, just talking to them for fun.  Of course, they did not respond regardless.  I realized it was bad and apologized.

My dad thinks I need to be greatly punished for any little wrong thought, which he knows, too, for example, to elaborate on how I stand.


So, I see that people are actually making me uncomfortable holding me as bad while they communicate with me in ways that are supposed to be enjoyable.  I'm not quite sure what the problem is I need to think about.  It sounds like I cracked under pressure.  No one "forgives" me.

I'm upset how things turned out, like how it didn't matter how someone thought of me, like I should forget about them.

So, people try to get by me without weird situations, but then I come home to more problems and my private life ruined.  I didn't really get why anyone could act like I owe things etc.  No one really cares if I care about anything, but, when I'm minding my own business here, they symbolically approach me about that.

People are mad if I am hurt because I can feel sorrow for myself.

"Bucket List"

People make up reasons to think of myself badly racially, but I didn't suggest that to be on my "bucket list."

People tell me what not to talk about but talk about it later among themselves.

Racism Against Whites

It's what part white multiracials feel.

Lies

People try to make up ways I am not good enough to communicate.

No Time for This

People want to exclude me from life but offer opportunity to many other people who are full Asian or other races.  They shouldn't even be able to claim they can detect suddenly that I am unacceptable racially.  People used to not be able to tell.