efficiency....

So, why do people make a big deal of getting attention?  I know I didn't get much growing up or anything.

To "give attention," or not give attention, that is the question.

"It happens."

Wow, it's amazing to see how much fun one person can have!  It's funny how there's only one person that exists.  I didn't want to enforce that on my life; I like people and animals and nature too much, more than studying the aliens!

Ha ha, anyone can say what they want, but I'm a good person.

True, people are judged for if they are a Late Boomer, but people who do music and not have light hair usually don't "make it" like people with lighter hair ... and people sometimes shun musicians; they are jealous or think they are not good enough.

I don't know why I quit music; maybe because I was treated racistly.

Am I being chased from my dreams?

People keep presenting me with inappropriate questions.

Things are cool...

People think good ole (old) values are to be of superstition.

Some of those reasons are no good.

Why do others get away with things that I don't that aren't bad?

a series of partially bad moves to make someone horny and put others in a wild goose chase

People want to prevent me from happiness in a "relationship" with an older lady.

I even get in trouble for being attractive, now.

Edit

Music Theory III was 3 credits.

Since when was anyone outwardly aware that music was better than being a star?

People think being bullied and messed up is the only thing that can make you worth being a person.

School

I think I am just gonna try to get an Associate's degree in music for now, work towards that.  I don't think I can afford to pay for German at any college, but maybe.  So, I made my schedule:

-Violin - 1 credit
-Music Theory - 3 credits
-Music Ensemble - 1 credit
-College Algebra - 3 credits
-English II / Honors? - 3 credits
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Total: 11 credits

I may need to make another appeal, but otherwise it is all paid for by FAFSA financial aid.  If I can keep this up, I will graduate next school year, maybe Fall 2019.  I'll have an Associate's degree in music.

I could follow up and go to Rollins or UCF.  I think I want to go to UCF, which has a BM.  The only problem is I wanted to learn German, and they took most of the classes away.  I can still take level 1 and 2 or do that much at a community college.  Rollins has the minor, but I kinda don't want to be there.  I did go to community school private music lessons there for 2 years.

If I can't go to school, I might work, for that semester, if I get on financial probation for a W I accidentally got and the appeal unaccepted.

I'm having a hard time finishing up in math and speech, but I hope it goes okay.  My GPA in those classes are an A in math and B in speech, I think.  I know math, it's a 96%.

I was gonna not do General Studies, but I guess I will graduate after all and soon.

People are getting away with saying I am bad.

Did you know I was put down for making my eyes look more intelligent to fit in better?

They keep suggesting it's all about ruining an older lady I like and getting personal with me telling me not to feel.

I found something in the media that said I wasn't my own person and had to associate with others in ways I probably wouldn't agree with.

Everyone is coming to self-realization and ruins it for me too tho.

People are messing with my "relationship" I have with an older lady I like.

Why do people have a problem with me?  Forget people saying to be mean to me.

What do you think of sexually mature children?

People have different situations and ruin it for others by being troublemakers and people care about them instead of you also being happy.

Isn't it gay to get too much attention from just your parents?

In the movie "Inside Out," they had a character try to make another mad to fix something, and the last straw was her selfishly bursting out, "Duh!"  What a halt to progress.  I've seen people in Central Florida mime this out for someone.  They mime disgustingly.

I don't want to do little projects like other families to play with me being stimulated in ways I dislike, like it's a balancing act.

I added a jazz dance class and a modern dance class to my schedule.  Each is 2 hours 15 minutes and 2 credit hours each, not sure if I can afford it nor pay with FAFSA nor qualify for other aid.  I may have to just take the jazz, if my mom says because of money.  I used to be a ballet minor for 4 semesters.  I tried to continue good ballet classes here, when I moved and came home from college.

Anyway, I see I am enrolled in Music Theory III!  Exciting!

I'm waiting for another college to contact me back where I want to take German, maybe once a week or online if I do the dance.

😆

I hear Central Florida again drooling like they are all innocent and ready to fight about it.

Someone keeps showing off acting like they did it, they can stimulate me through the air without touching my private, they're God.

They want to believe that I was trash in certain ways and involve other people in certain ways.

I'm watching Inside Out and noticed no one cares about me and people ruin my life.  They may have a creed that only Late Boomers who have more to give deserve to feel good and go and exploit and badly, inappropriately stimulate them.  "Oh be kind to your fine feathered friend, for he may be somebody's mother."

"It matches."

Since Hillary didn't win the US Presidency, the older lady I have a "relationship" with had to be made to seem to "emit" hurtful messages to me to quell pressure, but it also "matches" that can be used as the next punishment.

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People are so pathetic.  When they are mad, it's saying I'm not really all that and should "listen to my father" and think that I'm worthless.

People don't want me to talk about some things but socialize about it, themselves.

What do good people think they could do for her?

So, they just helped ruin my "relationship" with an older lady.

Life is all about if you succeeded for your age.  People are prejudiced like that.  I feel pulled away from success.

I thought they were despised.

They want the older lady I like to feel odd, different from others..

Good people only get away with it if they aren't too nice to me, how unexpected.

You can't waste time putting down an older lady I like to annoy me because it's your fault.

Some people are ready, they act different, and to accept the new ways, like that they are connected to their parents or family.. rather than what they seemed like as a person, themselves.  To conduce an unfair judgment.  They know in some situations they will get something and I won't get a turn.  It's like all my successes go to people I've known, at least to a degree.  Like, I meet someone, and something is like we didn't meet normally but over my thus content family.

The people monitoring me in private are outlandish, bullying me like it's capisce and something to accept to look good and that is inevitable in good people over time.

I wonder why my life is like crime fighting, while I'm in school.

They keep abusing me.. for little things that aren't even bad.

It's admittedly irritating some people who can't stop obsessing over the older lady I like like she's to be exploited because Johnny Depp was a famous movie star.  How is it a good thing?  It's bothersome.  I don't know if there is a good  way to do this.  It's funny there are other famous people.

I already have problems of my own, and this just doesn't justify it.  I guess I could still have a relationship despite all this.  I do worry about it being too much.

I noticed the older lady I like looks like she took a lot, whereas she was supposed to be a strong citizen, and the people monitoring me in private are being immature and said, "Want it?  Fight."  They even seemed immature when they said it.

The world is so worthless, in some ways.  Anyone will pop up and be racist.

..Central Florida... just has to know.

Some evil people do things to the older lady I like.

Some of those damn Central Floridians think they can handle my life.

The people monitoring me in private keep using stupidity on me because they are racist and don't care what happens to me because I had to stimulate myself.

They are ruining my life because someone has an issue on if I ever have to stimulate myself.

The people monitoring me in private keep messing around.

If I have hard times, it's an opportunity for someone else.

I've been tired and pressured and collectively feeling overworked more than I'm used to.  I haven't been in school for a long time, but it's something I've done and thought I could still do if I had to.  I don't want general studies next semester, just music and German.

Orlando / Central Florida thinks it's their moment of truth.  They've been trashing me and think it's time for them to get attention to how they are really good and could have been.

The funny thing is it used to not be like this.  It's like no one has to care about me and I don't have to get anything.

Is someone ruining my life, besides, with weird rules?  Threatening to hurt me if people are nice to me, and the police can't make it better? because I might lost what I have.

No one's supposed to be famous like that.  It's getting in the way of me having a "relationship" with her.

They think I am worthless.

Some people know about an older lady I like but are mean about it.

See, what's going on is just a mess.  A mess from a mess.

What am I supposed to do if they ruin it for me if once in awhile it's like I need to stimulate myself?

People are already on patrol about me just feeling anything good.

I said it was okay if an older lady I like gets to feel in some way she likes, even when it's unwanted and bad to her dismay, which is probably not a good part.  Besides, it seems like they are doing something for her that could have been done in some other way.

It seems like the people monitoring me in private are just having a time putting on a display to get attention.

They pop up and be serious if I feel upset or something and ruin it for me.

They make the page load in strange kinds of syncs, like water ballet, repetitively.

Don't you go thinking you or anyone has anything on me like I have a bad mouth like you, who are always sarcastic.

No one wants you.  No one is gonna listen to you.

People keep ruining it for me if I have to stimulate myself.

I need a Problems blog for times like this so I don't have too many posts and have to fill out codes when I post.

They think they are involved.  They can't get it.

I can just sit here a bit some times and say how damned some of you people are.

This didn't happen, before.

Some people are complaining about me getting attention from an older lady I like.

They are immature.  Nothing they do matters.

It's pathetic when some people think I want to talk to them in certain ways about certain things, like they think I need to be taught a lesson.

This isn't important.

I don't want this shit on my regular blog.

They are preventing me from having a good life.

They won't stop.

They said I wasn't all that.

They might be taking advantage of me, like I am bad, and threaten me if I post on a special problems blog in detail.

cont.

They keep being picky if I disagree with them now and said the prolonged "it."

I'm getting treated like this is my life.

I hope things didn't get worse overall.

I spite those people.  "Oh, lah dee dah, this thing is all about me 'feeling good.'"  It's not just that anything slipped.  I probably don't like them especially, anyway.

You know, I have schoolwork to do, and this seems like a diversion when I'm tired of it.  I only have finals left, it seems, some homework, too.

It seems thing were carefully taken care of, but, if they dislike how I act, they can make it worse.

Some people seem worthless to talk to and they think they get the silver lining for how they are.

The people involved monitoring me in private seem to be letting this happen, an older lady I like being badly and inappropriately stimulated.

The people monitoring me in private and others involved think they can just do whatever they want with me.  It's bad news of what's on their mind, like making an announcement, of how to ruin my life, for picky reasons, "just in case."

Maybe, more rest/sleep will help.

I sorta phased out doing my math homework.  2 days left.  I don't want to take more general studies, now.  I also have to get to my speech and start memorizing using flash cards.