What am I supposed to do if they ruin it for me if once in awhile it's like I need to stimulate myself?

People are already on patrol about me just feeling anything good.

I said it was okay if an older lady I like gets to feel in some way she likes, even when it's unwanted and bad to her dismay, which is probably not a good part.  Besides, it seems like they are doing something for her that could have been done in some other way.