People are just making sure an older person I like is badly inappropriately stimulated and that I don't feel good at all, like I don't matter and it's their business.

It seems like people have a secret obsession, actually.

So, why does someone have to feel certain bad things in bad ways?

It seems it's going around that I should be dissed, in high and low places.

ooh

so "sensitive"

I didn't want to be in a telepathic fight.

What's happening to my family?  It matters to me.

It seems Late Boomers always have felt mature stimulation.

People all have problems and want me as the example, and I said what I said.

Well, I was having a better and better day, stayed calm at home and jogged.

I was fine with everything, people wanting certain feelings.

Now, I'm considered bad because I was attacked like I had a problem.

Why is everything so suggestive to people born before Generation Y?

Underground Railroad

We relate about you and the problems you cause.

Followup of Segregation

People think either nothing matters or I should relate just to my sibling, my little brother, racially.  Other people have smooth lives for what it's worth, what they do to deserve things.

People are trying to create diversions for me when there are real problems.

I have to avoid "the near occasion of sin" myself, in ways ... but people keep throwing sin my way.  All I can do is be defensive.

Some people just want to make other people feel powerful.

People act like they can tell if I am going to have a problem.  It doesn't seem to happen before they act like they can tell.

I don't really see any problem what other people want to feel, but that's their business.

People are just in position to see if I want to feel inappropriately stimulated in a bad way like an older person I like who was exploited to it.

It might be better if people didn't do things just because they can.

Just because someone can do something does not mean they should do it.

If people think some things are unimportant, what are they so concerned about?

I could do without a lot of people, now.

Why is everyone acting so testy, quickly throwing negative messages and suggestions at me to test me and prove me out in that way.

Everyone "knows my secret."  😆

People don't have a handle on me emotionally.

Everyone keeps going by acting like I accepted as though they just triumphed over me.

Why are people looking to me like I create problems racially.

So...

Renaissance?



Baroque

People took away positive aspects of me and used it to dress up others who can match or exceed me socially, in certain ways.  They keep going like I said okay.

When people see something emotional that's not about  them, they fight about it and put a price on it.

People find me inappropriate, but I being treated like I am inappropriate when I'm not.  I saw the change.  I am fine, and people attack me out of proportion.

I'm not saying anything else, like anyone has to talk to me.

Everyone is acting like they are better than me.

I find everyone constantly picking at some of what's most important in my life.  "On the other hand," I am focused.

Oh, and...

...my spine was hurting, but it got better after sleeping a little.  It was from what I was talking about.

Freshened Up

I showered and cleaned my room some.  I just have to take a trip to throw stuff out sometime, laundry to iron and to wash when it's my turn.

I am disturbed about myself again this morning, but, like I said, I freshened up.

Someday, my room will be clean, I hope.

I wonder if this is a good thing.

I bet, if you think about it, my life is worse being controlled in the ways it has been.

Can I still play?

I'm into violin for orchestra now.  Supposedly, it will work out, though.  I might try doing something more physical rather than, say, do 2 instruments or singing.

Segue!

So many singers and musicians go to Japan! I cannot count them!

What do you think about "burying the past?"

I figured yesterday matters as much as 2 days ago "and so on and so forth."

I guess, also, people expect things to be better in more difficult situations as you get further along in time.