but they make the reason to get her away from me when they sometimes think it's because she was with me

It's always because I'm supposedly in trouble.

Even if people aren't guilty.

I wonder if she is happy and likes it.  That is good.  I mean, I'm ready to live my life, but we keep talking about this weird stuff sometimes.  I don't want to think I ruined it.  All I tried to do to start was express my concern and intelligence.  I guess people "lost it."  I was posting on my blog, not trying to ring on people busy in the situation.

I think people are just confused and don't know what they want.  I saw a girl born around 1997/1998 probably with old parents pass by in a line at Disney, and I thought I saw she thought to her mom, "What I want?  I don't know what I want."  It was like it was too much to ask of her in any way.  You know, people are intent to not let people feel special like that.

I think this lady needs that, but I thought she already got it.  I wonder why she is alone.

I can tell people are participating with the monitoring me in private.

the best football game

New Orleans vs Jacksonville FL which is about the same latitude

I try to avoid this topic, but even at home it is important.

What is LA, the opposite of everything?

Why does it have to be this way?   You know, people did it to her individually, but she's gone, in certain ways.

Why is the older lady I like inappropriately stimulated?

I don't have problems, but my life got more boring in some ways leaving college with nowhere good to go.

So... my life is much better, but that's not the only reason why.

I think the world is taking it great, but I feel sorry for them in some ways.  It's still gone, and I feel like I don't care there might not be an afterlife.  Who thinks that?  People have accumulated themselves in anti-God religions in some comfort that it might be there.  Witches.

Hey, it can be drastically worse to go through this.

People are under the illusion that if anyone knows about the older lady I like that it's the widespread underground fame.

It seems like one person has changed my life.

It looks like it can't be okay because supposedly it wasn't important for me but maybe okay because it is for her.

I'm not gonna accept other people saying I'm bad.

Also, people are promoting her for her generation and race.

It's the people in the world who are closer to me making this bad, it seems sometimes, acting like I'm bad and need to be punished.  It might be okay, though, because the older lady might have done it.

They aren't doing anything important with the lady, just want to punish me, for selfish reasons.

People don't care.  This is worse than OJ.

It seems like I lost the relationship in some ways, like I'm rooting on the exploitation.

Well, this comes up sometimes, like I'm a werewolf, but hasn't been often.  It seems like the answer to the question about what the problem supposedly is.

Supposedly, we were gonna make the older lady I like okay and then go back to business.

I don't like the way they promote the older lady I like.

Why is it all about underground fame now that the older lady I like is underground famous, but I'm treated like I'm bad?

What, did they think the older lady I like didn't fit in right?

There's not much going on, just realize more shit like how adults don't care about kids.

Anyway, aside from "saying" and overly focusing on that, how will I be okay?

I do forget about the lady in cases like this.

Someone said I was a part of my family which is a failure, but I think she liked it, and I just found out it's true but "not liked."

...but just listen, I am nothing to the older lady I liked and "stuck" with other people still.

I'm not sure what will become of my life in progress.  I made progress that I can make a stand, a feeling like cursing but not disgusting, something more "local" of life, that can be practiced in the home or halfway house, as well as on this blog...

This is just evil, but I don't care.

Whoever did it!

Why aren't other people important?

I don't need my thoughts and attitudes trashed what I go through.

I'll never have anything.  I don't even care if there is an afterlife.  I find comfort in material things.

I think my yearnings have been stolen.  It's not there, anymore.  You know, it used to be important.

They are just trying to humiliate me, for little things, and let other people get all the good stuff.

It is suggested some people I knew was hurt by someone and now this.

What, are these 1 1/2 years a joke?

I want it back! whatever other people think they can take from me. but I don't care anymore.

How can I have a relationship with an older lady I like if I can't stand that since she's exploited by people thinking I'm in trouble that she doesn't care about my underground fame because it doesn't make sense now that she's "equally" underground famous maybe, like she could have "lost it."  She "doesn't need me" and her underground fame is more suggestive, like I don't exist anymore and I don't want someone else to replace her for me.

Is everyone going to be like 1 person in how they are "stimulated" when this person was "younger?"

I don't want to go by what my parents are, so who cares if I copied someone else?

I still don't know if it's a race where everyone wants 1 thing.  I was a strong member of the group of people who "know" everyone is different ... unique.  We all have a place, though most people are complacent.  I wonder if anyone thinks they should exactly have what I have but then have it better and more.  I am not a brat, though.

Don't bother complaining, no one can make anyone do anything.

Why do some Germans act like they are better when they are not?

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Ooh!

November 2016 but I think it was shot earlier.

#PhilippeJaroussky i la #FreiburgerBarockorchester

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Peculiar.  I was interested in Germany and still am.

Trabajando 😂🍸 #freiburgerbarockorchester

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I was right, there was something wrong with inappropriate stimulation for the older lady I like because people think she got addicted and I will be stuck alone with less.

I included my feelings for other races in how I look in a positive way as an introduction to the world, but it does not make me bad racially, like Germans are better now and not even the same amount good.

It's funny when all the people who you think would like you who are cool and emotional and different ages ... act like you didn't want to talk to them ... and people think you're too good for even such good people even for fun you could have in life and the rush... but in the end you rot and not have a good life involving others well.

Also, I noticed that someone acts like they are the only person in the world who did what they were supposed to and they are just asking for like people to step up, but when a younger person has a contribution in such a way, it turns out they said they were the only person who were allowed to be emotional, in this regard, because they were born in this world first and are the original person who did this.