Christina: 07/26/18

Thursday, July 26, 2018

Well, I'm on my female cycle.

I slept this evening and guess I'll go to bed. Finals and a speech one day next week.

I'm mad but don't want to get angry at anyone.

I was attacked. I can be happy. I have problems, though. I am pushed to the limit and not forgiven. I am trapped with certain people. I was blamed just because it was awkward.

What should I do? Have inappropriate thoughts? like it's not what other people want of me? because I don't care about those mean people. I have a lotta haters out there in the underground.

I'm bored. My life isn't interesting, anymore.

Why do some people get to treat me like shit?

I had long nails.

I'm not binding with my family like we're the same. Some people are messed up.

Is that lady okay?

cheap

I don't do trash.

"Held at bay."

I can run, but I can't hide.

So, my music was used against me. I was afraid of that.

I guess not.

What, do you need my life?

1 thing no one can do is blame me for something because I did what I did and said what I said..

...but no... I already said I was trash.

Edit

I fixed the starting point of the Big Hero 6 YouTube video.

So, does this lady have fun?

Big Hero 6 is genius!

Why am I just trash? I didn't want to be. That's not fair.

I can be a violinist according to America, too bad for the Germans. I want to move to Germany and learn/watch/play violin. I wish I learned the orchestra, but I'm so distracted and poor.

...and I might be off to eat!

I want to do the right thing and not base it on me being the butt of it.

What if sometime you did something to someone that they did to someone?

You can always take back what you say, even if it's a bit amazing. (That's people's rights.)

Am I just going in a circle with some people? I'm afraid there's some legitimate abuse, here.

Re: I could make a really good topic, but I...

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» 7 minutes ago(July 26, 2018 09:58 PM)

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"The grass is always greener on the other side."

I know people can't be shown the wrong thing in the wrong way because they react immediately. You can't always control life, no matter how hard you try, and some things don't always work.

People usually refrain from showing bad people something they want to mess with. Like, being careful when and where you walk in what places..

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I am cooler than most people and careful about my race.

Why did Amber Heard get to be "used," in different justified ways, by Johnny Depp?

It all starts with one post.

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Fine! No one ever talks to me! Don't come up to me and say, "Well, now I'm better than you because you said that."
— Christina (@Christina86FLNO) July 26, 2018

I'm just not lucky, and people keep thinking I'm nothing, I can't do anything.

I feel like I'm not depending on the people monitoring me in private. Why does it feel like I have a worse life than other people, meaning what they get in relation to what they do?

Twitter

Who the hell says go on Twitter or Facebook? Nothing is there!
— Christina (@Christina86FLNO) July 26, 2018

...and now I don't have a life. All other people do is make sure I can't meet anyone.

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Do you like Johnny Depp? He was a good person, but he likes to be rebellious and conforming. He wouldn't like me that much.
— Christina (@Christina86FLNO) July 26, 2018

People pretend you have to do all sorts of things to be treated right.

They keep teasing me about how I don't see any people I like, so I guess no one's out there or something's wrong.

People involved monitoring me in private don't seem to care about me and people I depend on emotionally in some way in the middle of it.

Sometimes, I'm afraid to say normal things.

The internet is amazing, but people hide behind it and don't even use it to talk to you.

I stopped following some people online, but I feel aspects of my life have gone there.

I think they are really wasting time and lying.

Can we settle something, like not ruining the world because someone wants to punish me for feeling sad or upset about my life being totaled in some new way each time and etc. etc.? I can put up with so many things and not be blamed for silly reasons that others can't accept anything about themselves. It's not something to get uptight and lose it over. You know what, that sounds boring and I bet some people give me problems on purpose and I just have to continue living this way, though this idea does recur.

People think they know me now and now I can't live my life. I can in some ways, but it's certainly a topic of thought.

Update

I edited my Twitter profile and color.

I'm good at making topics but not being popular.

I could make a really good topic, but I...

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» a minute ago(July 26, 2018 09:18 PM)

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…would not get a lot of responses because I made it, even if it's something the whole board may get into. I might, though. I mean it could be really important. I don't think anyone else would post the actual topic, though..

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I'm not at people but thought I might be concerned how people single me out and are against me.

Why am I supposed to think some people like me?

I like making fun of people, but I'll try to get something going being respectful, maybe, for now. They just keep popping up saying ridiculous things if I feel content and am about to go onto something.

I don't have to listen to them, and I can say whatever the hell I want. I'm not bad; everyone doesn't hate me.

They're watching me do it.

The people monitoring me in private keep tearing me back down because of my someone wanting them to, like that's not the reason why.

Because I am being monitored in private, they can ruin my life if they want, like monitor my decisions and thoughts and act like they know everything. I'm always still in trouble for the same things years ago. I wasn't really that bad, according to what I knew.

People think I haven't gotten up and picked up the pieces, but they are the ones in trouble.

People take from me socially and say it doesn't matter because it's not something they have. They want to act like I am like them, now, like too bad too sad. I may have been inappropriate, but I wasn't mean to anyone. People tried to avoid me saying that.

People are stupid and don't believe you are affected by your social environment. It can affect how you look, what you want to spend your time doing, and who you come off as. It's important to figure out life. It could "'make' or break" you.

People judge me by my family and friends.

I somehow gave people an impression of me as a changed person.