Monday, July 2, 2018
Dream
Someone older I like asked to use my calculator, "Christina..." I said I thought it was okay though it fell a couple times
Too Late
People are saying Late Boomers should get what people like me and my age supposedly should have and more, that if they are attractive that means no interaction in attractiveness for younger people, even some of us good ones.
How tall are we supposed to be? I heard 5'3"/5'4" wasn't really short. It might be lower average. I am short from being a gymnast and being fit but also losing sleep for homework busywork. I never was sure how tall I wanted to be it seemed. I think my legs are short, so maybe I'm not small as a person otherwise. It might be the jogging I did in high school.
When people are mean to me, I just get treated worse it seems, like it had to be that way. Why do I deserve that people I know get famous over me just to say I'm not worth it? like I did something really wrong and am alone and need to be ashamed of myself? I mean I am in a way, but they were mean to me before.
In a way, in general maybe, if an old friend wants to be what seems like a star for other countries is fine by me, but don't like find me and just come in and ruin it specifically for me. I wonder if she is to be a princess of her favorite country or mine, but I do not have such a desire. They made 2 Disney princesses after her. I wonder who told them or if they just knew.
Something to Talk About?
Why do I feel people want me to say something, but the people watching me in private don't want me to post on my Problems blog?
Temporary
Noticed in general and interested, why do people go into relationships like they won't terminate?
The Young at Heart
I feel set up to lose my relationships, and I'm not interested in people, as it's like only kids matter and maybe people who graduated from college on time, while I was given a hard time for, maybe, no good reason.
Cast Down and "Life Is Unfair"
People keep acting like I don't amount to much, just because they feel bad and they can. I'm not that bad to start, but I feel I'm getting worse and worse. I'm on psychiatric medicine that makes me tired that I don't need that I have to take if I live with my parents.
People Who Know Me
I'm being tested, even by people monitoring me in private probably, that if I don't see myself in a certain way, at one moment tested, that I will never amount to anything next to other people. That's an easy one to cast down, as most people seem repulsive in behavior and manners and in general. Also, they see me in private or something and I have people I'm related to, and they all acted funny and then turned on me.
The Young at Heart
I feel set up to lose my relationships, and I'm not interested in people, as it's like only kids matter and maybe people who graduated from college on time, while I was given a hard time for, maybe, no good reason.
Cast Down and "Life Is Unfair"
People keep acting like I don't amount to much, just because they feel bad and they can. I'm not that bad to start, but I feel I'm getting worse and worse. I'm on psychiatric medicine that makes me tired that I don't need that I have to take if I live with my parents.
People Who Know Me
I'm being tested, even by people monitoring me in private probably, that if I don't see myself in a certain way, at one moment tested, that I will never amount to anything next to other people. That's an easy one to cast down, as most people seem repulsive in behavior and manners and in general. Also, they see me in private or something and I have people I'm related to, and they all acted funny and then turned on me.
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