Thursday, July 5, 2018

Yay!  The Freiburger Barockorchester starts FIII GA RO tomorrow.
I wonder what we can do to make the person getting attention feel good.

*tears of joy* but why?

People like my gay abandon where I don't give a care, but why attention like that for me?
I was precious.
Other people are still strong.
I'm not even important!
Instead of the strong woman I knew someone to be, without a question, I now find, for whatever the reason, a lady who has to check herself and cannot speak to me as otherwise/before, just because she knows the whole world is always obsessing over her and want her to be in a gay abandon of bad inappropriate pleasure.

If you have a really good friend, do you give them up and let them live it up?
I used to be somebody.  Things I deserve were taken from me.
I feel like a couple years ago I had been being treated kindly and respectably, by some in some ways, but now I keep getting that I don't matter, like that's true and okay in such a sequence of events, wherein I did lose things that were important to me socially.
I kinda have something going alone.
I see people are taking advances at me I abhor.
I guess I'll just go to sleep.

I was so awake from being awake last night and not being able to wear my earplugs so I could hear the alarm.
I had a sorta exciting day.
People can't just ignore me here in Orlando / Central Florida because they think they have to communicate with everyone to make then feel good, to exchange feelings as you pass all too consistently...  They are so racist and uncomfortable.
I talked to a counselor about my math teacher bothering me the whole class last week, and now I feel in trouble.  I just don't want anything bad to happen!

I feel a bit invaded, as what it is.

It seems people from older generations got a chance to get ahead and compensate me.  I don't stand a chance.  A lot of people are mean and don't like me.  I go around and get constant racism.  I get dirty looks and people shying away like I'm not good enough.  Sometimes, it's not like that, but there's always the chance!

I feel like I've been robbed and taken advantage of, my life compensated.

People all are interested in ruining my life, sometimes, around me, it feels.  They want to make sure I don't have relationships how I want with who I want or even what other people also want.  I do come across some people.  I wish we would exchange Facebooks and start something.

cont.

My legs, where the most muscle is.
The flesh was sagging from my bones.
I feel hurt.
My bus driver was Spanish American, and she was so hateful of me I think like they can be these young Spanish Americans.  The bus was just buzzing the whole time with negativity.  I should go to bed as I could only sleep 2 hours, but now I really want to.  I wouldn't pee, neither.
People keep acting like I'm the one with a problem.  I'm normal.