I think I'm just gonna teach myself violin.

I get my AA next summer.

I want a Nutty bar.  I got a pack of them.

Is there anything or anyone on TV?

Going Slowly

I will get my AA Summer 2019.  I will try to go to a 4 year college nearby, maybe get my Bachelor's in Violin Performance and minor in German in 2 more years, taking the bus to school.  Then, I hope to play violin in Germany.

I have rules and conditions no one else lives under.  They could take away relationships if I don't suffer.

I'm not used to competition in this way.

I don't like how Late Boomers assume they are better than me.

School Schedule

I have 1 class per each day M-F.

I get in trouble because an older lady I like became exploited.  I can get in trouble if I feel good about myself in certain ways, for an example.

This again?  I already realized my feelings about people I used to like talking to more.

People do human services to have an easy life but are also mean to customers.  They make you have that feeling of shame, things people wouldn't dare do with people they know.

Why were people so gay about Generation X having friends?

Careful around Scandinavians.  They found out from Wikipedia that maybe Germany is from Norway and Scandinavia is from Germany.

I'm not upset at the lady I like, just that people make it worse..

So, anyway, if I feel injured, I get hurt even more.

I don't feel like I can talk about my feelings.

I heard a car outside say I would be hurt for doing this.

So, I lost my relationship because of other people and they still do it and I'm blamed.  I still have a relationship, but some of it is damaged.  I don't even linger on it.  It comes up.  Sometimes, I want to enjoy it.

6 Late Boomers acted like everything was okay and we had a relationship, but now each one had a big problem with me.

I am so happy it's summer break.  College starts in 3 weeks.


Classes:

College Algebra, which I'm allowed a head start on after Remedial Math, to my luck, though I need the relaxation and recreation more

English II

Intro to Humanities


I wonder if the psychiatric medication is making me tired often.  Oh well...

So, school will mostly be 3 months, with at least one break for who knows how long for Thanksgiving.  I hope my time in school at age 32 will be meaningful and not detract from my life, too.  I'm so happy to live a normal life, even though I live in the world's vacation spot.  I think the water parks are a little expensive for me and probably crowded, though.  I like it so much, but I haven't been since 2005, 13 years.  I've not gone much.  I'm trying to do violin.  A lot of girls start dance at age 3.  I could do violin, but I might have damaged the nerves in my arms, though I'm feeling better and more calm.  I damaged them hitting my table when mad when I was communicating with someone, sad to say.  I keep hitting the other strings.  When I did group class in college at 18, it was surprisingly easy and I/we didn't hit the other strings.  I tend not to as much at lessons/rehearsals, which I have just tried rehearsals at the beginning and not stayed.  Maybe, it's getting hard, but I'm pretty sure this is so.  It might also be age and other factors.  That's the only hard part.  The other parts are like learning any instrument, like when I did piano.  I wanted to do it more, but I didn't know I'd grow up and major in music.  It was the homework from school.  I knew people liked when I played.  It stopped when I could have gone to an arts school, oblivious.  How am I supposed to know these things?  I lost it when my life revolved around homework past supper.

So, what else is new?

They exploited her so I couldn't have a relationship with her.

OK, what are people trying to say?  That I can't have the same relationship I would have had otherwise?