I wonder if they handled me wrongly when they said I could not major in Music Education nor take singing.  They said I was too shy.  I had no behavior issues.

I didn't know where to go.  I wanted to stay in my major.

I wonder how I finally remembered I was interested in violin because that's what I'm doing now.  It might have still been better if I stayed in college.  I didn't really need an extended and super long break.

I gained weight, in the end, which I feel both small and big in bad ways.