I like the new, young blonde in the FBO; guess she friended the young player Kathrin Troger, who I also like who has been there a long time.

Andrew Lloyd Webber?

Are American musicians afraid of sap?

Dream

Someone older I like asked to use my calculator, "Christina..."  I said I thought it was okay though it fell a couple times

I feel like I'm cramming money.

cont.

That means I've been wronged.

I am lonely, my relationships I find ruined.  People who used to like me don't but like others better.

I didn't really say anything mean, but the people watching me in private think it counts because of my dad.

I am looking forward to this semester ending so I can have a break.

redeeming qualities

Why are shorter ballerinas good?

What if none of that is possible.

Too Late

People are saying Late Boomers should get what people like me and my age supposedly should have and more, that if they are attractive that means no interaction in attractiveness for younger people, even some of us good ones.

How do you move cute without taking dance class?

I feel like some people are wasting their time on me.

How does my dad affect who I am because I don't know if he has to.

So, why did my dad have kids?

That's all people from Pennsylvania are, who leave.

He probably would know why I'm really asking without giving any reaction.

I wonder what's up with my dad.

Just say it's my race... as usual, it's not worth it.

life

I actually asked to play violin at age 6.  Was it too late?

Who cares about viola?

Am I bad because I started violin late?

Why was I wondering about violin before I felt ready?

How tall are we supposed to be?  I heard 5'3"/5'4" wasn't really short.  It might be lower average.  I am short from being a gymnast and being fit but also losing sleep for homework busywork.  I never was sure how tall I wanted to be it seemed.  I think my legs are short, so maybe I'm not small as a person otherwise.  It might be the jogging I did in high school.

I'll just be out because of my race, but other people of that race won't be.

How can you do anything in Orlando / Central Florida?

People keep acting like I don't do anything and single me out that I don't deserve anything.

cont.

At least, I didn't do anything bad on purpose.

When people are mean to me, I just get treated worse it seems, like it had to be that way.  Why do I deserve that people I know get famous over me just to say I'm not worth it? like I did something really wrong and am alone and need to be ashamed of myself? I mean I am in a way, but they were mean to me before.

In a way, in general maybe, if an old friend wants to be what seems like a star for other countries is fine by me, but don't like find me and just come in and ruin it specifically for me.  I wonder if she is to be a princess of her favorite country or mine, but I do not have such a desire.  They made 2 Disney princesses after her.  I wonder who told them or if they just knew.

People make false excuses.

The people monitoring me in private and others keep trying to prove I'm not much, and then they get away with it like I've succumbed.

Someone thinks they shelter the world from me and say I'm out and in trouble.

Well!

People are trying to inappropriately stimulate in a bad way someone older I like.  I feel they think they are digging into me and trying to connect it in bad ways.

I feel awakened to problems like I will not get enough rest this morning.

cont.

"This" being what I was talking about, but you don't know what that is.

I already said I didn't want to do this, but it seems to be affecting my relationships.

Oh, yea?

Well, why do you act like she's a role model but okay to be exploited too?

People are acting like an older person I like is in need emotionally.

I feel people misjudge me and squander.

"I seen better days."

I feel like I deserve to be assumed into Heaven when I "die."

I hate when people judge my life and act like, "Well! That's Christina.  I have my life, and I got things under control."

Tired

It was hard to rest.

If people get offended if I say something, it's funny because they wanted people to talk to them.

Why?

No one is interested in me, supposedly.

Something to Talk About?

Why do I feel people want me to say something, but the people watching me in private don't want me to post on my Problems blog?

Temporary

Noticed in general and interested, why do people go into relationships like they won't terminate?

The Young at Heart
I feel set up to lose my relationships, and I'm not interested in people, as it's like only kids matter and maybe people who graduated from college on time, while I was given a hard time for, maybe, no good reason.

Cast Down and "Life Is Unfair"
People keep acting like I don't amount to much, just because they feel bad and they can.  I'm not that bad to start, but I feel I'm getting worse and worse.  I'm on psychiatric medicine that makes me tired that I don't need that I have to take if I live with my parents.

People Who Know Me
I'm being tested, even by people monitoring me in private probably, that if I don't see myself in a certain way, at one moment tested, that I will never amount to anything next to other people.  That's an easy one to cast down, as most people seem repulsive in behavior and manners and in general.  Also, they see me in private or something and I have people I'm related to, and they all acted funny and then turned on me.

Orlando / Central Florida is counting on me to be in trouble.

People keep acting like I'm nothing but something tacky and out there.

People are acting like I'm the excrement of my family.  Orlando / Central Florida!