Disney Doorables

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I think I want Alice in Wonderland for the Cheshire Cat.  Frozen has a nice set, though.  Wait, I can't find it being sold.

So, maybe this?

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Actually, I would prefer a doll with reddish blonde hair.

Tricked!

My Thoughts Gone Haywire
I feel like I'm being scanned for hidden sarcastic messages yet sorta pushed into the dishonorable thoughts, like other people said it and it came up, even possibly later on.

Losing out, Socially
People can be wrongly strict to me, maybe for reasons like just to make an excuse to say they talked to me, and get away with it like it doesn't affect anyone.  In the end, I lose out on some important relationships.

People keep thinking I'm bad when others are the ones bad to me, like if I just watch them to take it back or to challenge them for doing that to me.  No one cares.  It's not their problem.

It's like I got trapped.

Was this meant to be?

What if someone on TV could affect someone just by what they do?  Hey, this sounds like fun!

It said there are good reasons and bad reasons for the exploitation of the older lady I like.

They are popping back up later telling me they really meant it, bad things and maybe things people made up seemingly or I knew by chance, an overload of excitement and information.

Why are people saying I'm being mean when I talk about these problems?  The older lady said it was bad.

People are saying my talking about my problems on my blog is bad.  It's a very impartial experience.

I think I have it down, now.  Of course, never upset at the older lady I like, even if she was exploited on purpose.

Suffering

I have no place in this world.

Baby Boomers believe Generation X/XY were just boring as people and not that life was more strict back when they were young.  They say they just somehow had these other babies later that made life more interesting, as an example to us and something we may never have.

That's just an excuse.  It's not true.

They're trying to prevent an older lady I like from caring about my underground fame but still she's important and now they took away solace of that situaiton.

It was there before an things were going good for me.

Everything I do gets shot down.

I'm not impressed with people who think they are sacrificial by saying it's all about one person out there who looks like Goldilocks.

I don't like that cozy feeling from my dad that he thinks he's shelter as a European to me as his mixed race thing.

I'm bored with nothing to do.  Should I go birdwatching?

Are people only nice to get ditzy and drunk in the end?

I'm in danger.

The people monitoring me in private are dealing with people I know who are an emotional and social threat, and there are some problems they have to pave the way for and exemplify.

Someone is taking out their anger on me that others ruined their life, but they are not mean to others.  They even fear them and like them, under it all.

"Oh, no! Call the police!"

Some people don't talk to me in real life, but they make fun of me about things we talk telepathically.

People are afraid to make a move with or talk to me unless it's connected to a supposed punishment.

Why am I haunted with future doom?

I was supposed to matter, but supposedly someone I know involved monitoring me in private wants to make it so an older lady I like is in more need and can't care about me.

They keep ruining my life if they don't like the truth or are sheltering me from my posts.

People are trying to believe that I can't communicate but that people I know can relate well who are racist to me.

I saw a concert, and the lady there acted like she could connect to my dad, and my aunt already stepped aside.  I wasn't much, in some way.  I followed her online, too.

They just spin out all dizzy.

No More Kids

because Late Boomers didn't have to care

Update

Delphi Forums Profile

I first came to Delphi Forums in 2008, 10 years ago!

I want to ignore it, but the people involved monitoring me in private keep ruining my favorite relationships.

Some people keep ruining my life, people I see, people monitoring me in private, and I my thoughts about some of Hollywood or people on TV there are questionable though.

They keep abusing me and saying I ruined it.

The older lady I like is not some nutcase.

People close enough to communicate with me are.

They're making this a joke.

but it was okay before and they won't stop making stuff up that I end up posting about

but they are stealing my relationship

Well, I hung up laundry and starting washing my pajamas.

They keep ruining it when I post here about my problems.

What's their problem!?

but I had it better before, in certain ways

So, it's true, they are messing with my life.

😠

They keep celebrating.

They took away their only remaining solution, maybe, and used the excuse they let someone else decide to stimulate the older lady I like.

What can I do?

I was settling down, and they started to irritate me.

They said it would ruin my life, what they did.

Forum Post by Me

The people here are racist as they are righteous.

They are careful how they talk to people, like they are careful to be racist.

They said someone else can control it to stimulate the older lady I like.

They can do whatever they want.

The people monitoring me in private said my relationship was "null and void."  They made things different before.

I don't feel good about it anyway.

The people of Orlando, some are being silly labeling my feelings like I didn't "get" to do something.

So, who cares about the other people who did this to us?

I was just talking about a problem.

I feel the people monitoring me in private watching my every typo.  I thought this was supposed to end?  I'm 32.

So, they are quietly getting by like I didn't know what a person wanted from me.

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My Stuff - Me Online

Delphi Forums

My life is miserable.

They said she is abusing me.

They said the older lady I like hurt me for talking on my blog.

What did I do wrong?  Have I been tricked?

What if it gets bad?

What if the older lady I like really has a problem if I am sad my underground fame doesn't mean anything to her and/because it's always important that she is underground famous in a way that is made bad by others or something?  What if it isn't something she likes?

So, now, she feels good, without people being mean to her, like the people monitoring me in private told me was the only reality, in a way, I could have feelings about for myself.

I was unclear that the older lady I like is said that she doesn't think I'm "as good" as before.

Like, whenever I complain about my relationship being ruined?  I try not to, but people, like the people monitoring me in private, say all these bad things and people around the city.  It happens.

Like, I feel I was in trouble for not knowing she really was upset with me.

Suddenly, they have to swear the older lady I like is better than primarily me.

Why should I follow the temporary mistakes of my parents for the rest of my life?

People expect me not to be like my relatives, certain ones.

The older lady I like was already underground famous.

I keep being made fun of for my private feelings, partially through the people monitoring me in private.

I think highly of other people, better in their own way that is good.

This nonsense won't stop, neither.

They think they can ruin my life now.  They are asking to sacrifice for the older lady I like in saying she is better, but other people are not better than me.

People try to take away and replace my relationships.

Why can people change my relationship?

I feel like the news that is exciting to them is slowly coming true.

They are acting like the relationship is over.

They also said I don't get to feel good and invading my private life via what they know through the people monitoring me in private somehow.

People are pretending I am bad and going in and taking everything from me, like people I know.  They are being inappropriately suggestive to an older lady I like and "adding" "sex" supposedly, like she's not been okay.

What should I buy?

A new laptop?

A Kindle?

More clothes!   I mean when September does roll along.  I have to be ready.

I'm excited!  I have to call and find out about moving, to Germany, and what English speakers can do, while I learn German.

Leftovers!

I don't want to run into anyone in the kitchen, though.

I don't feel as good but left tired.

I wonder what all I have left to eat... cheese...

Well, I didn't really lose someone, but it's something I end up finding others have me think about.

Well, I'm feeling tired.  It's cold in here, and I don't have anything to wear, that's good for now maybe.  Laundry?  Bed?  I got a new outfit yesterday.  I need at least 5 for school and have 4 now.  I have some sweaters to wash somewhere buried.

Depressed

I don't look as good as I used to, and maybe I can't go back.  Like I got too much California sunshine.

I wish I knew what to post ... or maybe I will make a Wix site.

What?  It feels like there is nothing to do, here.  What should I do, play exotic bird Bingo?

Other people feel good about him, some of them.

Something Unhealthy and Unfair

My dad is secretly acting like big mamma now because my mom is Asian, but I dislike even more.

So, if I feel hurt, sometimes, I want to go lie in bed.  I can't tell if it's from being tired, like I always am on pills.  It's always me the loser.  I feel addicted, at any time, in my room I know.  Why not?  When I'm out, I dream of having bed in my life.

Now, they think this is okay, and it's been that way, for 1 1/2 years.

Why did Orlando do the impossible?

Like I said on a forum...

I don't feel up and am going to lie down.  I have nothing I have to do right now, anyway.

I need to rest up for school, sometime.


I heard a noise outside, probably my dad.  He thinks I am bad and should not be allowed to move to Germany, like I stay in a place as bad as Orlando where he can be mean to me, living with him or seeing him.  Even if I leave, he talks to me, though I didn't in college.  I'm not sure what to do.  He wants me to leave but also to stay.  I am 32 and he thinks I just decided to run away.  Other people don't live with their parents.  People usually leave by now.  In Ireland, people sometimes stay until they are around 30 because of money.  My German foreign exchange student in 12th grade I think said she has 2 more grades of high school than the US.  So, my dad is saying I want to have fun in an okay place, but I have to get used to it here with him, though he also doesn't really want me here otherwise.


Should I still lie down?  Maybe, I can do some laundry.


My dad doesn't really like me here, just wants to punish me in any way he can like he's an okay citizen at that, using me as a part of what he decides is okay.


I was comfortable with the idea of getting my AA first and then moving to Germany.

About school, I have to submit an appeal for financial aid and school starts in about a week then.  I have to go Monday when it's opened I think and type it up and send it by then.  I want to work if this doesn't work out and move to Germany without my AA.  Not sure how that would go, maybe just wait a little longer I guess then and get my AA still.  The other community college has not contacted me back, yet, with a note to get back in, soon, I sent at least a month ago.

Talk about making me go crazy and making my problems get bigger.

That's like me telling on my mom and being put into foster care.

I wonder if my dad wants people to get stimulated by conspiring about doing illegal things to me, and the people monitoring me in private distribute the deed.

Failed the Exam of Life

I did poorly in college because it was too hard.

I moved to Orlando and ended up spamming people advice, who didn't answer mostly, and was upset at someone via e-mail.

I've stomped my foot in public, in some way..., at people sending me telepathic messages of racism to me.

I used store cards as allowance and we forgot a payment or something and were charged more, before spent the money my parents gave me but didn't technically say when to use.


I've grown up with people saying I'm perfect, well-behaved, smart ... that I could never get in trouble.  Now, my life sometimes focuses most strongly on these few things that happened when I found I was being monitored in private and mistreated and we moved to Orlando and I had to come home from college.

A Personally Muddled Network

Did you know the people monitoring me in private bring up my relatives who rarely talk to me and friends who no longer talk to me?  I have wanted to talk to people, but we have fallen behind.  I wonder why this is.  They are brought up either just as a supposed discipline tool or for something to talk about, too.  My family got a step closer, too, when we happened to move to Orlando.  I yelled for my mom to get out of my room, this one time earlier on.  I was sorta ignored in the family, though, after I had to come home from a prestigious college with the 2nd highest scholarship, after being told not to take singing because I wasn't the type.

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Please post on my forum!

My Forum

You know, people like to be suggestive to an older lady I like.  They are really being mean because I'm alive.