I think people question me, *at length, and want to overcome me, like I'm holding in negativity.

*at length - 1. in detail, fully. 2. after a long time. (link)

Could you come up to me and say I'm not perfect and that's why I am having problems?

Am I so imperfect that anyone can be mean to me however they want?  It seems like the way people go.

Did you notice older people don't need younger people and don't care about anything because of it but can still be okay or "on top?"

People dare to tell me mean things because of problems.  Oh well, most people are caught up but not all involved..  However, it affected my life.  I have problems every day, and I don't know what I do wrong on purpose more than others.  It seems like it's just to pass time, though, or maybe something expensive that doesn't work, in certain ways.  How do you go from being good to this like it's okay but can seem insecure?

Why did things work out for me, before?  I don't need some of these people.  Didn't they set us up for something and take it away, for no good reason?  These are just annoying people, up to no good.

Also, it seems a heavy price to pay for a good job for some people, saying if they groove with life like what matters simply doesn't matter anymore is all we need to say to the world and that's it and we can't seem to get along.  Certain generations have certain important issues.

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It's just a plus for them.

It must be nice to get the best of how things are, also that which people actually prize which for them is unattainable.  Hey, it's a way to make Christina feel the opposite bad, so why not these people do this?  I think I'd need to check a few things.  They literally found a way to abandon me.  I said people didn't have to do this.  I just didn't want the important things in my life ruined!

Well, I hope the older lady I like is happy.

..Oh, so you can do it, flip what's mine to someone else.

Why is everyone so bothersome!

Pretty much, they want to take it away because some of it gets worse.

They keep finding bad reasons to be mad at me.

I've been informed an older lady I like has a "problem," wherein I was trying to separate myself from certain problems and was forced to remain alert because I technically have the relationship, just not like before in certain ways.  That's "what" they said.  Why should I believe it?  They are hiding information, like it and they are important, in this way.

Those damn, certain Central Floridians.

People are obsessing over an older lady I like to feel badly, inappropriately, and extremely stimulated and claim me feeling anything means I should be forgotten and have my older personal relationships ruined.

For some reason, I can't go on knowing someone without being emotionally abused by others who claim it was her.

Everyone keeps trying to badly and inappropriately stimulate and change her for the worse.

all the time

Well, they're just bad not doing anything because they give me a bad time no matter what.

People keep acting like I'm bad forever.

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I was so good, but just like that and other things that weren't mean to specific people outside of my family.  It all happened after moving to Orlando, mostly.  It's a hard place to function in, with people trying to Florida-tize themselves and always acting like you're a "nigger."

People seem to like to make up excuses.

They probably give good people a hard time ... as an excuse to talk about something and as an opportunity to feel more emotion.  However, you can see history...

I guess my problems is worse.  I spammed some people advice they seemed to need and wrote to some people upset.  I sensed they were all racist and I was trapped socially.  Tangled, Frozen.  Those movies look like the people who wouldn't write back and therefore drove me crazy, etc.  I feel so ignored.

It seems like cultures like Eastern Europeans get mean to people who Germans like, like mixed Asians.

Why are innocent people considered guilty when something is amiss?

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It feels almost just like going to college and getting in the voice program on the side and finding the "real voice majors" started singing in high school and I started, in choir, at age 8.  They sounded weird trying to mimic tacky opera singers, sorta the way you felt about it when you were a kid.

"Jumping on the Bandwagon"

People are "jumping on the bandwagon" "at the last minute," and I'm losing out, possibly, as my life is how it is, in certain ways.

Did people always find older adults loving and appreciable? or want to? or did you already find out-

I guess they are caught up in the world and don't really say much but want to be cool, like they were caught up in self and exterior hypnosis.

It's not so much I want to ask for anything, but I get into situations, and-  I just dislike what life has to be and has been, in some parts, people getting in my way in different, specific aspects of life.

Actresses

I like people like

Catherine O'Hara
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Julia Roberts
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Meryl Streep
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Jennifer Garner
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I don't want to be "the one," like people ask everyone.

That said...

Remember people were mad Johnny Depp became famous for things like Willy Wonka and Pirates?  Tim Burton, if you know, was also great and married and had kids with someone nice but not his type, as they separated anyway.

People acted like they got attention some one person who's from Generation X should have gotten.  It was such a big deal, the jealousy too, that the world was ruined forever.

What an older lady I like does is not for all of you; it's for herself, in general, like other people.