I'm not smart enough to hang out with Spanish people.

Some people won't let me talk to people who are nice to me so much.

Mixed race people seem to know more about race than people of one race.

Some people think it's more important to bother you and act like they are punishing you than it is to let you relax and sort out your private life and life in general.

Update

I added that I went to school in the Berea area of Cleveland.

School:
•New Orleans
- 2002, 2004-2006
•DC - 2005
•Cleveland / Berea - 2005
•Orlando
- 2006, 2007, 2013, 2018

cont.

It's not about if you're nose is prominent but if you have a certain, unattractive look.

Southern Europeans

Southern Europeans think that being long and thin with a big nose is all that's desirable and if you have Asian blood you automatically are not on their list of things to live with.

Southern Europeans seem rather caveman-ish and lost about their more ancient ancestral roots, like all they wanna do is have fun now.

They aren't racist to the Mid/Northern European race, but some of them are really mean to people with Asian blood sometimes.  Who else has to worry about them?  Blacks think people with Asian blood are the only race below them, which is a surprise to some that their dark skin doesn't but them at the bottom, among other things.  "Go figure."

Update

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School:
•New Orleans - 2002, 2004-2006
•DC - 2005
•Cleveland - 2005
•Orlando - 2006, 2007, 2013, 2018

Did you know I'm not considered blonde, but my dark features aren't fun with others?

Have you seen people, who are all white, glow with the traits from their dad, while you're left as stale and worthless? whether or not they should.  Like, first you see nastiness, and then you see elegance?  Are men despised or is this another 1950 dad effect?  Why do only we have to be concerned about generations with earlier dads?

I want kids to have fun, but maybe it doesn't matter coming from me.

People act like the older lady I like is queer and needs to be treated like a baby.

It's funny when perfectly nice people who treat others with respect spends their life hating on you.

I don't care about funny moments, actually, as a person.  Thanks for the reminder.

People want to weaken me to prove I am nothing, even with my "relationship" with an older lady I like.

People from Germany think it's about the family, even if yours is annoying and you're a good person.  They won't admit it.

People want to take back my life that way.

Why would someone think I hate on them as their personality because they think they got it out of me and I was only upset they are constantly mean to me, and they lie like I just am mean to them.

I don't know some things, but I'm to accept them now, about people.

No one believes I deserve anything because they "actually did" what they believed in and I usually end up probing around and not doing the wrong things.  They want to say it's unfair.

People used to be open to me, and I was fine.  Now, it's like 2nd nature to think I'm not okay to be with anyone socially.

I'm only defensive.  Who'd pursue someone who's sorry?

"L" for Loser

Did you know people like to eliminate mildly cool people to make it so they think one person is cooler than all and it's cool because there's no competition?

I know there are people out there who messed up my "relationship" and life in general already because they are so messed up.

I respect whatever is seeing me in private, but sometimes I just wonder but know I can't escape and get what I wanted in life exactly now.  It's too bad, but supposedly they aren't bad.

If they say she "said it," I still have to say what I say, that I won't succumb to the exploitation or something.  I respect her rights, though, if she really said it.

They keep making up things to make fun of, like I have a bigger problem than most people.

The older lady I like was fine with me, but people keep saying otherwise, to feel good like they are protecting someone in something important because they and their lives are messed up.

cont.

They've ruined a relationship some!

People think I am just flirting,

The people monitoring me in private think it's okay they can control my life.

The people monitoring me in private have a weakness and succumb to the antics of my dad's mom and older younger sister.

Why does everyone always think of an older lady I have a "relationship" with?  She's their "saving grace."  Sometimes, you have to let it go, but then it sinks in in my thoughts when I'm alone.  Then, it's all about her feeling like she's not the strong person she was, according to some sources.

I know she can say she doesn't like it, but it still happens.  I have nothing against her or if she likes it.

I'm upset because I claimed I can't tell her what to want ... people think this is okay.  They're just "out to get me."

The people monitoring me in private maybe don't know who did it and think it's unavoidable.  They keep putting me down, like it's their job.

If you had a relationship you liked with an older person, would you just not care about anything?

Stream of Thought - Negativity in Specifics - My Life

This doesn't look too interesting coming from me.


Too bad about racism.  Why linger on racism?  That's like being a "thought police."

For some people, life is all about watching people mess up and pay for it, while they are supported.

Is being famous a sacrifice like work? because it's not as fun as you might have hoped?  Perhaps, you wish you were a performing and creative artist.

People think life is solved if you can act.  That's so overrated now, though.

Generation Z needs to have a good life.  Hey, I mean it's just another generation as is everyone and has its own special qualities, which they are important to their parental generation of Late Boomers.

Actors are only human, and all humans need to be appreciated.  Why do famous people seem lonely?  It's just a game to see people mess up and make them feel like they don't need to have a good quality social life, whatever it is.

People like to remind me if I did something wrong and in sneaky ways, over and over, though, before, people said I was cool with things.  It was such a big deal to some people to say I am good, so many people thought this.

I think people have hurt me more than others have hurt them, emotionally or socially etc.  I have funny rules about what I'm allowed to think.  I disagree if it's someone thinking I'm them.  The damnation of Central Florida!

There seem to be a lot of things to talk about, but not many things seem to happen.

Am I supposed to have said anything?

Funny Musings

Lots of people are bad and don't admit it.

Most good people don't care about me or my problems.

Everyone notices different things.

Are you tired of the older lady I like?  I'm a bit tired of something but it's not that.

WWJD

Always, look on the bright side of life!

Hm...

Too Much Schoolwork - Shutting Down

Boy, college!

I felt like the schoolwork became too much.  I don't remember the math at the end as easily.

People don't feel like they need to be stimulated because they have more hate for me to create a model that would make them want to be stimulated or else they get stimulated by other means.

As for the model, I don't know ... it seems she has to say it's bad but still can experience good things.

What is wrong with my environment?  What are other people smoking?