I noticed people encourage other people to feel great pleasure and condone me for any, sometimes.

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Ever since I used to curse on my blog about people annoying me constantly via little ticking noises they put in my room ... I've been in trouble.  I notice anyone who meets me now becomes more popular than me, acting like they can handle this situation with the blueprint of my past of what doesn't work in front of them ... and I am annoyed I'm infamous how it is, with my life affected...

I had a nice time talking to a counselor with Irish, English, 2% Spanish, and Scandinavian...

I need to lay down.

I'm starting to creek and sway.

Not looking forward to night spirits.

Is Germany?...

...latching onto the Irish, punishing you creatively and still sensitive to race in 2 ways?

Concerned About My Irish Dad

I'm not into his type.  😁  He likes to act cordial as he lets you know you are to be "punished" for not agreeing, like he made it okay by being cordial, suddenly in a certain way.  He's also from Pennsylvania, and so he acts like you know everything you're supposed to do and if you do one thing that seems questionable, he turns on to it.  I dunno about this, I think it's farmers, but they like to test you and think they outsmarted you and then blame you for everything you did then.

My Parents Don't Savor Cooking but My Dad Loves Eating

Why can't he "help himself" or "fix something up" for himself?

He doesn't even grill.

Sometimes, I don't like eating, but I want to have energy and maybe still get taller because I feel small with short legs.  I crave Starbucks, though.

I'm concerned everyone feels for my dad.

Fever - Doing Things "Literally"

I think Central Florida is bad but not worthless yet demented.  I don't think there was need to be violent to African American slaves just because it seemed habitual and ceremonial to them.  Like, Germany was so good, but there were so many Nazis.  It's like Southerners thought African Americans were meant to be sacrificed.

Feeling Refreshed and Maybe More Ready for Bed...

...I feel a little blank like it's time for bed.

I feel like I talk about feelings rather than having them, sometimes.  I wonder if my life has come to some capstone of completing something.  I wonder about having feelings concerning things related to what people do.  Maybe, I have too many communication tools but nothing to do with it.  Communication is about looks, like Twitter and the pictures on Facebook.  We can communicate, but now we communicate "living in style."  In Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs, there is more than one stage of how we are that is related to feelings.

I feel I could have had a richer life.  I wanted more friends more.  I think they secretly turned on me and manipulated my life.  They had their reason...  IM isn't the same, anymore.  People weren't friendly when the internet came out enough.  I'm not sure how many people, but it seemed at least some must have only been excited at first.  I wasn't sure about an online journal, did not think of it.  That's what I want, more than the IM with friends.  It seems sad there are only obscure message boards.  You know, you look up something juicy and find it is a topic on an obscure message board about something else?

How I'm Doing

I was talking to counselors at school for, like, 2 hours about saying my teacher is good but making me uncomfortable...  I was giving them my background.

I'm gonna go get something ... to ... eat ...