Saturday, July 7, 2018
Robots, No People to Worry or Care About
That can be a bad thing...
...but I saw a commercial where a girl looked at a drawing a boyfriend did, and she looked mad like she knew when I was feeling bad and pressured strangely by these people that I spammed them e-mails with advice. I must have lost it, but I did not suggest offenses in doing so, like it's gotten out, maybe via the people monitoring me in private. They think my life is over because of that.
...but I saw a commercial where a girl looked at a drawing a boyfriend did, and she looked mad like she knew when I was feeling bad and pressured strangely by these people that I spammed them e-mails with advice. I must have lost it, but I did not suggest offenses in doing so, like it's gotten out, maybe via the people monitoring me in private. They think my life is over because of that.
Identifying the Problem
I'm roping off issues.
So, now, it was mostly that I kept feeling attacked and bad words surface in my thoughts, and people can tell... It's because I am nice but socially abused.
There's something funny about if I think certain things in front of people as opposed to in private.
So, now, it was mostly that I kept feeling attacked and bad words surface in my thoughts, and people can tell... It's because I am nice but socially abused.
There's something funny about if I think certain things in front of people as opposed to in private.
If I go to a different community college...
German - 4
Violin - 1
Music Theory - 4
Choir - 1
Ballet - 2
Jazz Dance - 2
Total: 14
That-a-way, when I'm not in college I will be caught up in my health with the exercise from dance class and can continue to stay in shape, later on.
I'm concerned I might be in late classes and need to focus on homework and the practicing at home. I use the bus.
I had this really nice rolling long duffel bag, but I think it got thrown away. I'll have to find another good rolling bag. I won't need as big a rolling bag as before because I don't plan on showering there, with the things I need that go with that, like hair dryer, shower shoes (rain boots,) etc.
Violin - 1
Music Theory - 4
Choir - 1
Ballet - 2
Jazz Dance - 2
Total: 14
That-a-way, when I'm not in college I will be caught up in my health with the exercise from dance class and can continue to stay in shape, later on.
I'm concerned I might be in late classes and need to focus on homework and the practicing at home. I use the bus.
I had this really nice rolling long duffel bag, but I think it got thrown away. I'll have to find another good rolling bag. I won't need as big a rolling bag as before because I don't plan on showering there, with the things I need that go with that, like hair dryer, shower shoes (rain boots,) etc.
No More Hair Coloration by Bleach?
I don't know what is put in lightening shampoos and conditioners, but I just ordered anti-frizz hair products (Fructis Garnier - shampoo, conditioner, blow dry cream, and air dry cream.) I'll get it in less than a week! I didn't even have to pay for shipping because I have Amazon Prime for $13/month and, I think, "Pantry Prime" for $5/month.
I wonder if that's why my hair was looking different, hard to explain.
Sadly, I have no extra monthly money, anymore, but my dresses will be coming in. I have weekly money, maybe just use it for drinks at school and not buying other food so much. I have a few other things to buy, too.
I wonder if that's why my hair was looking different, hard to explain.
Sadly, I have no extra monthly money, anymore, but my dresses will be coming in. I have weekly money, maybe just use it for drinks at school and not buying other food so much. I have a few other things to buy, too.
I know that I keep getting in more trouble until I can't be punished anymore in ways. I mean, I'm especially pointing out my problem that hopefully is or gets better. I do have a question that people feel ways I can't I need to do other things to feel, which isn't necessarily all that bad for others but so for myself. It seems that I can't avoid it if I think of certain things, which I guess anyone watching porn would be a similar situation. I dislike it, though, and have since.
Let me address my issue
I had some problems feeling and was worried. I know I told my dad I felt bothered and I felt people were onto me throughout the day. I figured I couldn't let my mind wander, though I have before. I guess I was committing myself to something in doing so. I was worried, like, "Why do I keep doing this?" "Do I need it to help what others do otherwise?" ... or maybe "Is it my mixed race?" I'm feeling better about it, though I wonder if I will face stress problems because some people really stress me out when I try to be good. People blame me for being "different." Sometimes, people are on a roll and don't stop once they find I'm not acting normally for a time. Strangely, it goes away after the next day.
Class Schedule
Not sure if I will be able to pay for it, but I added yoga to my schedule:
Violin Lessons
Music Theory III or I
Music Appreciation
Symphonic Band
Jazz Ensemble
Yoga
Now, this is the life!
Violin Lessons
Music Theory III or I
Music Appreciation
Symphonic Band
Jazz Ensemble
Yoga
Now, this is the life!
Tomorrow!
Everyone, enjoy!
I hope I can take responsibility for improving my thoughts when I feel dared to process words people detect and dislike to them.
Oh, boy! It's the weekend! Gotta do some math and speech and see about another class.
I know I am always nice and people look at me and start things with me. I just feel defensive, and they make me think of bad words or someone got it in me.
"Ho hum diddly dum."
Hm ... people want to feel important and caught onto my benefits, try to expose people I like who are older in bad ways.
I feel I would make it in Europe because I'm nice and stuff. Why can't an American make it, in the world?
I hope I make my life better. I don't know how to deal with awkward bemused-ment. It makes me agitated and bad words seem to come up.
I hope I can take responsibility for improving my thoughts when I feel dared to process words people detect and dislike to them.
Oh, boy! It's the weekend! Gotta do some math and speech and see about another class.
I know I am always nice and people look at me and start things with me. I just feel defensive, and they make me think of bad words or someone got it in me.
"Ho hum diddly dum."
Hm ... people want to feel important and caught onto my benefits, try to expose people I like who are older in bad ways.
I feel I would make it in Europe because I'm nice and stuff. Why can't an American make it, in the world?
I hope I make my life better. I don't know how to deal with awkward bemused-ment. It makes me agitated and bad words seem to come up.
How It's Going
Well, I am trying to do better, but situations are getting uncomfortable and uptight from now.
I'm excited I might be an in extra ensemble in college. It might be the secret key to moving up. I'm starting college private violin at a community college, as I started late. I'm excited to play with other people, as I was in choir age 8-18.
I've had BBCA (British Broadcasting Corporation for America) on, which is narrated wild animals as of when I've watched it all night and day.
People have gone crazy judging people by who their parents are and what their parents are like. That plain and simple doesn't improve things for me.
I wonder how some people in the more west of the US feel stimulated moreso or want to moreso, in different ways. I don't see people carrying their kids here in Orlando much. I saw they did in other places, I think including in Florida. Like, if you see a person from the South cross their eyes, it might leave some impression on you that you can't quite get, though. I wonder what's different about the US and Europe.
I feel like I need to be as conservative as possible. It's not fun to just eat out at any time with people or things. The movies aren't fun because of other people, often. I can't interact much. Everything just turns out bad, like I have to worry I'm in trouble from being upset when inconvenient.
It seems that someone or some people think that an older person I like who is being exploited is bad just because they are nice to me and things are hard, though the first person I mentioned makes it worse. What should we do? It may be detrimental to people what these people do. It probably affects a lot of people.
People keep trying to interact with me saying when I make a point I am inappropriate.
Why do I feel ... Domed? Damned? Darned?
I'm excited I might be an in extra ensemble in college. It might be the secret key to moving up. I'm starting college private violin at a community college, as I started late. I'm excited to play with other people, as I was in choir age 8-18.
I've had BBCA (British Broadcasting Corporation for America) on, which is narrated wild animals as of when I've watched it all night and day.
People have gone crazy judging people by who their parents are and what their parents are like. That plain and simple doesn't improve things for me.
I wonder how some people in the more west of the US feel stimulated moreso or want to moreso, in different ways. I don't see people carrying their kids here in Orlando much. I saw they did in other places, I think including in Florida. Like, if you see a person from the South cross their eyes, it might leave some impression on you that you can't quite get, though. I wonder what's different about the US and Europe.
I feel like I need to be as conservative as possible. It's not fun to just eat out at any time with people or things. The movies aren't fun because of other people, often. I can't interact much. Everything just turns out bad, like I have to worry I'm in trouble from being upset when inconvenient.
It seems that someone or some people think that an older person I like who is being exploited is bad just because they are nice to me and things are hard, though the first person I mentioned makes it worse. What should we do? It may be detrimental to people what these people do. It probably affects a lot of people.
People keep trying to interact with me saying when I make a point I am inappropriate.
Why do I feel ... Domed? Damned? Darned?
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