Let me address my issue

I had some problems feeling and was worried.  I know I told my dad I felt bothered and I felt people were onto me throughout the day.  I figured I couldn't let my mind wander, though I have before.  I guess I was committing myself to something in doing so.  I was worried, like, "Why do I keep doing this?" "Do I need it to help what others do otherwise?"  ...   or maybe "Is it my mixed race?"  I'm feeling better about it, though I wonder if I will face stress problems because some people really stress me out when I try to be good.  People blame me for being "different."  Sometimes, people are on a roll and don't stop once they find I'm not acting normally for a time.  Strangely, it goes away after the next day.