How can I have a relationship with an older lady I like if I can't stand that since she's exploited by people thinking I'm in trouble that she doesn't care about my underground fame because it doesn't make sense now that she's "equally" underground famous maybe, like she could have "lost it."  She "doesn't need me" and her underground fame is more suggestive, like I don't exist anymore and I don't want someone else to replace her for me.