Saturday, August 11, 2018
Wanna fight?
Someone bothered me and said it was all about an older lady I like being inappropriately stimulated to punish me, like nothing happened and nothing impresses them.
So, this lady wasn't supposed to have this but maybe she should have something good, but they are doing it at the sacrifice of my relationship.
I feel like I'm plastered and can't do anything mad because the people want to do it and they are mad at me for something important for no reason. They found out, too, things that they'd want to ruin.
I feel like I'm plastered and can't do anything mad because the people want to do it and they are mad at me for something important for no reason. They found out, too, things that they'd want to ruin.
"Clueless" vs. "Rebel Without a Clue"
People are just coming up with the idea they need to stimulate the older lady I like. It's getting better in public, but the people involved monitoring me in private still see me as in trouble so I can't fix it. They do whatever they want.
Petra Müllejans is very likable. You are smart to say why they were nominated. I didn't realize that was why, but I'm not surprised. The members have it together, too, and sometimes surprise you. I saw some of them live in NYC in May. I like their energy and impetus. Encore! 🥰— Christina (@Christina86FLNO) August 11, 2018
So, are we to cheer on this lady like this was good but the reason used to be bad and now we don't care why? I thought she didn't want to be underground famous and get too much attention, in a certain way. People do it, anyway, greedy about generation and race, intent to keep me from her, it seems in some ways. It's probably because of how much I like her. People did this! and it's affecting my relationship.
"This just in."
I was gonna go back and delete posts, but I saw a commercial that just said the same thing. They are acting like I did something wrong in saying what happened, like it was to be hidden.
See, that's the answer, that I don't get to ever be happy in any question this person addresses. I can never be right with the truth. This person is "mean" to people, in how she acts, like that's the "mystery," that I'm wrong or they're wrong to feel good about what we do and who we are. If we feel that way, it's like this person is saying no like a long mystery we cannot solve, at least that's how it is for me with being stalked.
What, should I not "talk it out?" I was upset about my relationship diminishing in certain ways. I was pretty sure of why, that someone specific did it.
They said that the older lady I like gets inappropriately stimulated and ruined, and they "barge in" my private life and take away my being able to feel as good and relationships.
I feel my body poofing up when I post now.
They said that the older lady I like gets inappropriately stimulated and ruined, and they "barge in" my private life and take away my being able to feel as good and relationships.
I feel my body poofing up when I post now.
I'm feeling bad they do this, have this person take out their anger on me and ruining things in my life, though when you encounter them they are all friendly, but still they did it. I'm being pursued, stalked. They think it's a treat I can communicate some, but it ends up like this, even when I don't. I just wanted to post about it. I didn't do anything wrong. This doesn't make sense more than most things.
So, what am I gonna do if they hurt and threaten me, like I'm nothing? Was this person chosen to beat me up emotionally like some joke? Oh, Christina can take everything. This person can't even own it. They keep being mean to me when I post about what I posted about.
So, what am I gonna do if they hurt and threaten me, like I'm nothing? Was this person chosen to beat me up emotionally like some joke? Oh, Christina can take everything. This person can't even own it. They keep being mean to me when I post about what I posted about.
I can't fight for my life and can't get it back, like nothing means anything for me, in such a simple, personal way. Other people are okay, but I won't ever get what I want if it's how things are now, in certain ways...
This is just a series of accidents to corner an older lady I like I have a good relationship with to make her feel inappropriately stimulated and special in a series of uncontrolled, suggestive ways, as though they are just biding time and for fun. They decided she was abnormal if she liked me because of my mixed race.
This is just a series of accidents to corner an older lady I like I have a good relationship with to make her feel inappropriately stimulated and special in a series of uncontrolled, suggestive ways, as though they are just biding time and for fun. They decided she was abnormal if she liked me because of my mixed race.
Ruined Relationship
Something is changed.
My life is being hurt by others and they are including an older lady I like in their posse, supposedly.
"Money can't buy everything."
I used to simply have a relationship with someone I greatly respected. It's other people who are turning her into money saying she's "worth" too much for me because everyone wants her. She already was okay with me, but now it's possible it was never serious, like a joke or something you look at on different sides. Why does the older lady I like get encouraged not to care about me when she wants to, but it's like I don't "have" to have anything and some bad people are inappropriately stimulating her.
My life is being hurt by others and they are including an older lady I like in their posse, supposedly.
"Money can't buy everything."
I used to simply have a relationship with someone I greatly respected. It's other people who are turning her into money saying she's "worth" too much for me because everyone wants her. She already was okay with me, but now it's possible it was never serious, like a joke or something you look at on different sides. Why does the older lady I like get encouraged not to care about me when she wants to, but it's like I don't "have" to have anything and some bad people are inappropriately stimulating her.
Friday, August 10, 2018
Disney Doorables
I think I want Alice in Wonderland for the Cheshire Cat. Frozen has a nice set, though. Wait, I can't find it being sold.
So, maybe this?
Actually, I would prefer a doll with reddish blonde hair.
Tricked!
My Thoughts Gone Haywire
I feel like I'm being scanned for hidden sarcastic messages yet sorta pushed into the dishonorable thoughts, like other people said it and it came up, even possibly later on.
Losing out, Socially
People can be wrongly strict to me, maybe for reasons like just to make an excuse to say they talked to me, and get away with it like it doesn't affect anyone. In the end, I lose out on some important relationships.
I feel like I'm being scanned for hidden sarcastic messages yet sorta pushed into the dishonorable thoughts, like other people said it and it came up, even possibly later on.
Losing out, Socially
People can be wrongly strict to me, maybe for reasons like just to make an excuse to say they talked to me, and get away with it like it doesn't affect anyone. In the end, I lose out on some important relationships.
Baby Boomers believe Generation X/XY were just boring as people and not that life was more strict back when they were young. They say they just somehow had these other babies later that made life more interesting, as an example to us and something we may never have.
That's just an excuse. It's not true.
I'm in danger.
The people monitoring me in private are dealing with people I know who are an emotional and social threat, and there are some problems they have to pave the way for and exemplify.
"Oh, no! Call the police!"
Some people don't talk to me in real life, but they make fun of me about things we talk telepathically.
Forum Post by Me
The people here are racist as they are righteous.
They are careful how they talk to people, like they are careful to be racist.
They are careful how they talk to people, like they are careful to be racist.
I was unclear that the older lady I like is said that she doesn't think I'm "as good" as before.
Like, whenever I complain about my relationship being ruined? I try not to, but people, like the people monitoring me in private, say all these bad things and people around the city. It happens.
Like, I feel I was in trouble for not knowing she really was upset with me.
Like, whenever I complain about my relationship being ruined? I try not to, but people, like the people monitoring me in private, say all these bad things and people around the city. It happens.
Like, I feel I was in trouble for not knowing she really was upset with me.
What should I buy?
A new laptop?
A Kindle?
More clothes! I mean when September does roll along. I have to be ready.
I'm excited! I have to call and find out about moving, to Germany, and what English speakers can do, while I learn German.
A Kindle?
More clothes! I mean when September does roll along. I have to be ready.
I'm excited! I have to call and find out about moving, to Germany, and what English speakers can do, while I learn German.
Depressed
I don't look as good as I used to, and maybe I can't go back. Like I got too much California sunshine.
Something Unhealthy and Unfair
My dad is secretly acting like big mamma now because my mom is Asian, but I dislike even more.
Like I said on a forum...
I don't feel up and am going to lie down. I have nothing I have to do right now, anyway.
I need to rest up for school, sometime.
I heard a noise outside, probably my dad. He thinks I am bad and should not be allowed to move to Germany, like I stay in a place as bad as Orlando where he can be mean to me, living with him or seeing him. Even if I leave, he talks to me, though I didn't in college. I'm not sure what to do. He wants me to leave but also to stay. I am 32 and he thinks I just decided to run away. Other people don't live with their parents. People usually leave by now. In Ireland, people sometimes stay until they are around 30 because of money. My German foreign exchange student in 12th grade I think said she has 2 more grades of high school than the US. So, my dad is saying I want to have fun in an okay place, but I have to get used to it here with him, though he also doesn't really want me here otherwise.
Should I still lie down? Maybe, I can do some laundry.
My dad doesn't really like me here, just wants to punish me in any way he can like he's an okay citizen at that, using me as a part of what he decides is okay.
I was comfortable with the idea of getting my AA first and then moving to Germany.
About school, I have to submit an appeal for financial aid and school starts in about a week then. I have to go Monday when it's opened I think and type it up and send it by then. I want to work if this doesn't work out and move to Germany without my AA. Not sure how that would go, maybe just wait a little longer I guess then and get my AA still. The other community college has not contacted me back, yet, with a note to get back in, soon, I sent at least a month ago.
I don't feel up and am going to lie down. I have nothing I have to do right now, anyway.
I need to rest up for school, sometime.
I heard a noise outside, probably my dad. He thinks I am bad and should not be allowed to move to Germany, like I stay in a place as bad as Orlando where he can be mean to me, living with him or seeing him. Even if I leave, he talks to me, though I didn't in college. I'm not sure what to do. He wants me to leave but also to stay. I am 32 and he thinks I just decided to run away. Other people don't live with their parents. People usually leave by now. In Ireland, people sometimes stay until they are around 30 because of money. My German foreign exchange student in 12th grade I think said she has 2 more grades of high school than the US. So, my dad is saying I want to have fun in an okay place, but I have to get used to it here with him, though he also doesn't really want me here otherwise.
Should I still lie down? Maybe, I can do some laundry.
My dad doesn't really like me here, just wants to punish me in any way he can like he's an okay citizen at that, using me as a part of what he decides is okay.
I was comfortable with the idea of getting my AA first and then moving to Germany.
About school, I have to submit an appeal for financial aid and school starts in about a week then. I have to go Monday when it's opened I think and type it up and send it by then. I want to work if this doesn't work out and move to Germany without my AA. Not sure how that would go, maybe just wait a little longer I guess then and get my AA still. The other community college has not contacted me back, yet, with a note to get back in, soon, I sent at least a month ago.
Failed the Exam of Life
I did poorly in college because it was too hard.
I moved to Orlando and ended up spamming people advice, who didn't answer mostly, and was upset at someone via e-mail.
I've stomped my foot in public, in some way..., at people sending me telepathic messages of racism to me.
I used store cards as allowance and we forgot a payment or something and were charged more, before spent the money my parents gave me but didn't technically say when to use.
I've grown up with people saying I'm perfect, well-behaved, smart ... that I could never get in trouble. Now, my life sometimes focuses most strongly on these few things that happened when I found I was being monitored in private and mistreated and we moved to Orlando and I had to come home from college.
I moved to Orlando and ended up spamming people advice, who didn't answer mostly, and was upset at someone via e-mail.
I've stomped my foot in public, in some way..., at people sending me telepathic messages of racism to me.
I used store cards as allowance and we forgot a payment or something and were charged more, before spent the money my parents gave me but didn't technically say when to use.
I've grown up with people saying I'm perfect, well-behaved, smart ... that I could never get in trouble. Now, my life sometimes focuses most strongly on these few things that happened when I found I was being monitored in private and mistreated and we moved to Orlando and I had to come home from college.
A Personally Muddled Network
Did you know the people monitoring me in private bring up my relatives who rarely talk to me and friends who no longer talk to me? I have wanted to talk to people, but we have fallen behind. I wonder why this is. They are brought up either just as a supposed discipline tool or for something to talk about, too. My family got a step closer, too, when we happened to move to Orlando. I yelled for my mom to get out of my room, this one time earlier on. I was sorta ignored in the family, though, after I had to come home from a prestigious college with the 2nd highest scholarship, after being told not to take singing because I wasn't the type.
Thursday, August 9, 2018
It's always because I'm supposedly in trouble.
Even if people aren't guilty.
I wonder if she is happy and likes it. That is good. I mean, I'm ready to live my life, but we keep talking about this weird stuff sometimes. I don't want to think I ruined it. All I tried to do to start was express my concern and intelligence. I guess people "lost it." I was posting on my blog, not trying to ring on people busy in the situation.
I think people are just confused and don't know what they want. I saw a girl born around 1997/1998 probably with old parents pass by in a line at Disney, and I thought I saw she thought to her mom, "What I want? I don't know what I want." It was like it was too much to ask of her in any way. You know, people are intent to not let people feel special like that.
I think this lady needs that, but I thought she already got it. I wonder why she is alone.
Even if people aren't guilty.
I wonder if she is happy and likes it. That is good. I mean, I'm ready to live my life, but we keep talking about this weird stuff sometimes. I don't want to think I ruined it. All I tried to do to start was express my concern and intelligence. I guess people "lost it." I was posting on my blog, not trying to ring on people busy in the situation.
I think people are just confused and don't know what they want. I saw a girl born around 1997/1998 probably with old parents pass by in a line at Disney, and I thought I saw she thought to her mom, "What I want? I don't know what I want." It was like it was too much to ask of her in any way. You know, people are intent to not let people feel special like that.
I think this lady needs that, but I thought she already got it. I wonder why she is alone.
How can I have a relationship with an older lady I like if I can't stand that since she's exploited by people thinking I'm in trouble that she doesn't care about my underground fame because it doesn't make sense now that she's "equally" underground famous maybe, like she could have "lost it." She "doesn't need me" and her underground fame is more suggestive, like I don't exist anymore and I don't want someone else to replace her for me.
I still don't know if it's a race where everyone wants 1 thing. I was a strong member of the group of people who "know" everyone is different ... unique. We all have a place, though most people are complacent. I wonder if anyone thinks they should exactly have what I have but then have it better and more. I am not a brat, though.
It's funny when all the people who you think would like you who are cool and emotional and different ages ... act like you didn't want to talk to them ... and people think you're too good for even such good people even for fun you could have in life and the rush... but in the end you rot and not have a good life involving others well.
Also, I noticed that someone acts like they are the only person in the world who did what they were supposed to and they are just asking for like people to step up, but when a younger person has a contribution in such a way, it turns out they said they were the only person who were allowed to be emotional, in this regard, because they were born in this world first and are the original person who did this.
Also, I noticed that someone acts like they are the only person in the world who did what they were supposed to and they are just asking for like people to step up, but when a younger person has a contribution in such a way, it turns out they said they were the only person who were allowed to be emotional, in this regard, because they were born in this world first and are the original person who did this.
Wednesday, August 8, 2018
I know her generation and race made her attractive, but people still are more attracted to other people for their differences but don't say it.
If I like her, they say that means I am not allowed to have a good relationship with her because they think that means she's too good for me, like that's just their kind of logic but just for me.
If I like her, they say that means I am not allowed to have a good relationship with her because they think that means she's too good for me, like that's just their kind of logic but just for me.
Okay, so, now, I'm just wondering if the older lady I like isn't as much of a relationship, what with me seeming in trouble and all for no reason otherwise, because she was exploited, 2 birds in one stone. I realize life is life and if it was worse maybe there would be a solution. Do people like this better in their subconscious questioning? It's funny maybe she's likable by all, like as far as what she looks like and how she acts goes etc. I mean, sometimes I thought everyone liked me when I was younger, but they didn't want to be me and look like me.
I've seen it.
People sense they will have a problem and rope out a collective solution for everybody, working together.
My life can be permeated with the private waste pathetically worrying every day about how the older lady I like is now because I care about how the people involved monitoring me in private are to her because of someone being ditzy acting like this is real and another person I liked saying like what does it look like, etc.; they can't buy it's a game for any reason and pretend something is real they don't know. They want to do something to seem important.
My dad said I should chose the instrument I like the sound of best when he cornered me after starting piano lessons. Well, later, I found I already liked the violin, but it's not because of how it sounds, itself alone. How was I to know or even know now, with all this pressure. I noticed, by and large, the piano wasn't a standard classical musical instrument. I felt like I didn't even know real music.
The band teacher tried to recruit me, but I would have joined school group music only if there was an orchestra, per chance. I was upset there wasn't. I was already in piano and busy, and I wasn't actually ready to join a professional youth orchestra. See, in school, you can start as a beginner in band or orchestra and probably still perform.
The band teacher tried to recruit me, but I would have joined school group music only if there was an orchestra, per chance. I was upset there wasn't. I was already in piano and busy, and I wasn't actually ready to join a professional youth orchestra. See, in school, you can start as a beginner in band or orchestra and probably still perform.
They are acting like they are inappropriately stimulating the older lady I like and making it so I can't feel about things, like I'm desensitized. They are tacky and evil and it's stupid, doing it like a ceremony, like I'm bad and in trouble. They think they are all professional. They shouldn't actually be involved. They feel important here. They are surrounding the older lady I like like she is "special" in that way. They have nothing to offer.
A Political Affair
Something upset me in my Problems blog that is kind of interesting:
They are having an older lady I like making her out like she's prancing around being inappropriately stimulated in her eyes while...
They are having an older lady I like making her out like she's prancing around being inappropriately stimulated in her eyes while...
I was told my eyes are like nothing, not my own but that of another and then that my dad said to "come" with that in mind.
Changed for Good
Did you know someone voucher-ed her underground fame should be continued and celebrated as a good thing just because it looked like it wouldn't stop? My supposed heroism in underground fame stops, but I lose my relationship with this lady in some ways in the process, like there can be found reasons I am no good to her very much now, with things changing like this. It's not something to speak of by others but a part of life. Originally, she does not beg for fame and she still is my relationship; she gets it anyway. I'm having some hardship. I don't know what it is or who wants to talk about it! People think I am bad for cursing on my blog about hurtful, illegal noises put in my room. Other things have been in focus.
Ditzy
Now, I've had bad feelings when I get dizzy about her coming up in ways that are pretended to be a certain way. No hard feelings for real, though. I wonder what the big deal is when she is in la la land by others and I am in Hell by contrast, like that's all this dopey life has as possible. What if it is? I'm trying to fight it off, as the outside is still stupid. There's much to take advantage of if you can "keep your wits about you."
I am not mad at her, but it comes in little wisps because people pretend to be her. I wonder about how I suck more than most people.
Changed for Good
Did you know someone voucher-ed her underground fame should be continued and celebrated as a good thing just because it looked like it wouldn't stop? My supposed heroism in underground fame stops, but I lose my relationship with this lady in some ways in the process, like there can be found reasons I am no good to her very much now, with things changing like this. It's not something to speak of by others but a part of life. Originally, she does not beg for fame and she still is my relationship; she gets it anyway. I'm having some hardship. I don't know what it is or who wants to talk about it! People think I am bad for cursing on my blog about hurtful, illegal noises put in my room. Other things have been in focus.
Ditzy
Now, I've had bad feelings when I get dizzy about her coming up in ways that are pretended to be a certain way. No hard feelings for real, though. I wonder what the big deal is when she is in la la land by others and I am in Hell by contrast, like that's all this dopey life has as possible. What if it is? I'm trying to fight it off, as the outside is still stupid. There's much to take advantage of if you can "keep your wits about you."
I am not mad at her, but it comes in little wisps because people pretend to be her. I wonder about how I suck more than most people.
Why do people act like Ellen DeGeneres is on patrol? I know she's gay and can act forward but not let other people be themselves, like I don't take that from other people where they can act rough and tough and leave me in the dirt like I can't be rough and tough back because with normal people I am, but Ellen is cool in my book like most people though I disagree with her on things in how she acts because of some things about where we're from the same area.
Tuesday, August 7, 2018
WWI+II
First, I don't believe in killing.
Why do people get so attached to Germany who don't even do classical music? I think you're confusing it for Sweden and Finland.
Why do people get so attached to Germany who don't even do classical music? I think you're confusing it for Sweden and Finland.
I've been picked on for 5-6 years for complaining but also cursing on my blog about hurtful, illegal noises in my room. People didn't say anything because it was done as a group. People were onto me before, too. If I talk about it, the people involved monitoring me in private get upset. This is like being kidnapped. I don't feel freedom nor comfort, like others. I feel picked on for being a good person. Who knows who takes what I post here personally. I'm just saying, it's ridiculous. I have too much of problems, at times. It's become my life, all these things to do with someone. The people monitoring me in private don't care what they do, like they are cute being mean to me. If I did something wrong by accident, they won't leave me alone and act racist, while others are learning good things about themselves racially. They are acting like I can't post this, being weird. I don't have freedom of speech, and I just wanted to tell some people I have issues I can't resolve with the people monitoring me in private.
I used to be offered strange things, and it's like they took it back or think I don't matter and others do.
They get off and do it again, saying they aren't serious.
If I want to feel good, they act like I'm asking something they offered before more.
I'm stuck here with the people monitoring me in private interjecting throughout my day.
There are a lot of nice and intelligent people out there.
I used to be offered strange things, and it's like they took it back or think I don't matter and others do.
They get off and do it again, saying they aren't serious.
If I want to feel good, they act like I'm asking something they offered before more.
I'm stuck here with the people monitoring me in private interjecting throughout my day.
There are a lot of nice and intelligent people out there.
Everyone keeps thinking to others that my actions speak louder than words.
They think I am rotting in bed for no good reason, when I'm tired from going back to school in the summer and anticipating the fall semester with 3 classes at a community college.
If I get stimulated, they think it's just to say something.
I wanted to do more. I have to do my laundry and may do the 3 movie a week thing, maybe not that often though. Hm, I at least need to iron my new outfits first. I wonder if I will get tired at the movies. I take the bus there, too. I wanted to try Dave & Buster's; it's like an adult Chuck E. Cheese's. I'd like to eat out and get more clothes. I can do the movie thing while I'm in school, too.
They think I am rotting in bed for no good reason, when I'm tired from going back to school in the summer and anticipating the fall semester with 3 classes at a community college.
If I get stimulated, they think it's just to say something.
I wanted to do more. I have to do my laundry and may do the 3 movie a week thing, maybe not that often though. Hm, I at least need to iron my new outfits first. I wonder if I will get tired at the movies. I take the bus there, too. I wanted to try Dave & Buster's; it's like an adult Chuck E. Cheese's. I'd like to eat out and get more clothes. I can do the movie thing while I'm in school, too.
Monday, August 6, 2018
I'm seriously not just thinking I'm saying it's okay, and it's not to be mean to me like nothing matters in my life and now I'm 32 and before I was 18.
I dislike the feeling of control from certain people who seem to be holding me at bay as a bad person in trouble, but I think they're off. Would you chase after someone who's struggled from being in bad schools to make it out of there educated? if they had problems academically.
People want an older lady I like to get to feel like she is set apart from everyone else in the world as a naked child swinging her arms slumping over standing saying with a grin, "I don't know!"
I wonder if they want everyone to start ruining themselves with drinking, too.
They want her to be inappropriately stimulated and felt for for her underground fame.
However, they are going in and cutting out and labeling my private emotions so I can't have them anymore nor get new ones.
They exploited the older lady I like unnecessarily so she could not feel comfortable caring about my underground fame I had first naturally more but connected to being monitored in private though.
I wonder if they want everyone to start ruining themselves with drinking, too.
They want her to be inappropriately stimulated and felt for for her underground fame.
However, they are going in and cutting out and labeling my private emotions so I can't have them anymore nor get new ones.
They exploited the older lady I like unnecessarily so she could not feel comfortable caring about my underground fame I had first naturally more but connected to being monitored in private though.
My schedule went out of wack when I was told to quit singing at college. I left. They said I was not the type for music. I was told I was worthless and sneaky. I took singing as a Music Education major, but I didn't have to pass a singing audition to be in the singing program, as the book said, which was one reason I did it.
Gymnastics was hard but not a nightmare because I started so young, at age 1 3/4 and didn't quit until I turned 9. It fit like a glove, in some ways. I was considered advanced for my age, but I only got to things like back walkovers. It was work, but I could do it. Some of it was easy, I bet. Some of it caught on to me as scary, in the end, like cartwheeling off a cliff into a foam pit or doing something more advanced off the vault/horse.
When I was 9, I tried to play piano by ear. I just wanted to impress people. My parents got me out of art and into piano lessons. My dad then even asked me if I wanted to play another instrument, but I had no clue.
When I was 1 or 2, my mom asked me what I wanted to do. I just wanted to exercise in gymnastics class but not compete later, just so I would look attractive and people wouldn't be able to make me feel bad about myself. I grew up too physical like a tomboy sorta, then. I had the pig nose, pig face. I stopped gymnastics one time when we moved, and I started to flesh out and look more European than Asian. It also seems to be because we lived in the oldest continuing city in the US, which was very old-fashioned, and I loved old-fashioned things and wanted to live then, like Little House on the Prairie and American Girls, with the simpler, more artistic times.
When I was 1 or 2, my mom asked me what I wanted to do. I just wanted to exercise in gymnastics class but not compete later, just so I would look attractive and people wouldn't be able to make me feel bad about myself. I grew up too physical like a tomboy sorta, then. I had the pig nose, pig face. I stopped gymnastics one time when we moved, and I started to flesh out and look more European than Asian. It also seems to be because we lived in the oldest continuing city in the US, which was very old-fashioned, and I loved old-fashioned things and wanted to live then, like Little House on the Prairie and American Girls, with the simpler, more artistic times.
Things are worse these days, in coinciding ways that I have a better life overall now, clean. I'm gonna get an AA in 1 year, I'm teaching myself violin myself finally, I don't keep getting a new blog, my Facebook is cool, the "IMDb" forum is going well, I am more into my plan to move to another country in Europe and learn an instrument which is Germany and violin, I made a concert to the German orchestra in NYC, I'm making deviled eggs and eating better, school made me healthier mentally and physically and emotionally and opened me up to the truth of the world and gave me ideas to be better, my music is getting better again in ways...
The people monitoring me in private are going by the fact that the older lady I like is "different" now that she is exploited, though it was not important before, and speaking for her like she will burst out into saying anything at any moment, like a mental disorder or something that happens to you when you get too old.
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Should I leave Orlando?
Sure, I will miss some of the creme of the crop, but otherwise normal people can be so nasty or foolish/"stupid" about me, like I don't matter but it matters I treat them just right in a rush to get by. Many people here are socially bloodthirsty … and "stupid." The culture is a barren one, whereas the rest of the state thrives and prospers socially, maybe. Get further away from Disney suburbs, and you get closer to, say, better dance schools, I know. They wouldn't let me in and treated me like I was a joke. I went to one school in the teen class mostly, and there was a 27 year old Spanish guy in my class. In gymnastics were 40 year olds and at least the teacher employed as a tumbler and maybe the owner could hold the longest handstand and had a baby, age like 45-50? I tried to go back to dance at 27 and they acted like they didn't even know me when I said I went there already, years later. Before, I went to school free up north, in Cleveland/Berea, and later I wanted to go back and I had to pay. I might have lost my scholarship at Loyola on recommended long sabbatical. I want to move to Germany. I might after my AA next summer.
Sure, I will miss some of the creme of the crop, but otherwise normal people can be so nasty or foolish/"stupid" about me, like I don't matter but it matters I treat them just right in a rush to get by. Many people here are socially bloodthirsty … and "stupid." The culture is a barren one, whereas the rest of the state thrives and prospers socially, maybe. Get further away from Disney suburbs, and you get closer to, say, better dance schools, I know. They wouldn't let me in and treated me like I was a joke. I went to one school in the teen class mostly, and there was a 27 year old Spanish guy in my class. In gymnastics were 40 year olds and at least the teacher employed as a tumbler and maybe the owner could hold the longest handstand and had a baby, age like 45-50? I tried to go back to dance at 27 and they acted like they didn't even know me when I said I went there already, years later. Before, I went to school free up north, in Cleveland/Berea, and later I wanted to go back and I had to pay. I might have lost my scholarship at Loyola on recommended long sabbatical. I want to move to Germany. I might after my AA next summer.
Sunday, August 5, 2018
Saturday, August 4, 2018
I wonder if church doesn't want me. It looks like a bad influence. I don't plan to attend now. I'm on summer break from college. I'll take 3 courses in the fall and spring and 2 more in the summer to graduate that summer, 2019. Next semester is English II, College Algebra, and Introduction to Humanities. One class to attend each day M-F.
Friday, August 3, 2018
Late Boomers are trained to torment Generation X/XY. The only thing I was living for after my parental generation retire from life and such is to care about others's kids.
Like, Late Boomers will be sensitive even if they lift one finger for us or give us a pat on the back, which is only for the glory.
Like, Late Boomers will be sensitive even if they lift one finger for us or give us a pat on the back, which is only for the glory.
I'm sick of "stupid messages." People think I am rude to Late Boomers, like how I act in real life. I don't care how much trouble they are in in Hollywood. I am polite, and these people are "acting a fool" and I don't care about them.
They think that an older lady I like is exploited because she was nice to me and I have to accept it.
They think that an older lady I like is exploited because she was nice to me and I have to accept it.
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