It's admittedly irritating some people who can't stop obsessing over the older lady I like like she's to be exploited because Johnny Depp was a famous movie star.  How is it a good thing?  It's bothersome.  I don't know if there is a good  way to do this.  It's funny there are other famous people.

I already have problems of my own, and this just doesn't justify it.  I guess I could still have a relationship despite all this.  I do worry about it being too much.

I noticed the older lady I like looks like she took a lot, whereas she was supposed to be a strong citizen, and the people monitoring me in private are being immature and said, "Want it?  Fight."  They even seemed immature when they said it.

The world is so worthless, in some ways.  Anyone will pop up and be racist.

..Central Florida... just has to know.

Some evil people do things to the older lady I like.

Some of those damn Central Floridians think they can handle my life.

The people monitoring me in private keep using stupidity on me because they are racist and don't care what happens to me because I had to stimulate myself.

They are ruining my life because someone has an issue on if I ever have to stimulate myself.

The people monitoring me in private keep messing around.

If I have hard times, it's an opportunity for someone else.

I've been tired and pressured and collectively feeling overworked more than I'm used to.  I haven't been in school for a long time, but it's something I've done and thought I could still do if I had to.  I don't want general studies next semester, just music and German.

Orlando / Central Florida thinks it's their moment of truth.  They've been trashing me and think it's time for them to get attention to how they are really good and could have been.

The funny thing is it used to not be like this.  It's like no one has to care about me and I don't have to get anything.

Is someone ruining my life, besides, with weird rules?  Threatening to hurt me if people are nice to me, and the police can't make it better? because I might lost what I have.

No one's supposed to be famous like that.  It's getting in the way of me having a "relationship" with her.

They think I am worthless.

Some people know about an older lady I like but are mean about it.

See, what's going on is just a mess.  A mess from a mess.

What am I supposed to do if they ruin it for me if once in awhile it's like I need to stimulate myself?

People are already on patrol about me just feeling anything good.

I said it was okay if an older lady I like gets to feel in some way she likes, even when it's unwanted and bad to her dismay, which is probably not a good part.  Besides, it seems like they are doing something for her that could have been done in some other way.

It seems like the people monitoring me in private are just having a time putting on a display to get attention.

They pop up and be serious if I feel upset or something and ruin it for me.

They make the page load in strange kinds of syncs, like water ballet, repetitively.

Don't you go thinking you or anyone has anything on me like I have a bad mouth like you, who are always sarcastic.

No one wants you.  No one is gonna listen to you.

People keep ruining it for me if I have to stimulate myself.

I need a Problems blog for times like this so I don't have too many posts and have to fill out codes when I post.

They think they are involved.  They can't get it.

I can just sit here a bit some times and say how damned some of you people are.

This didn't happen, before.

Some people are complaining about me getting attention from an older lady I like.

They are immature.  Nothing they do matters.

It's pathetic when some people think I want to talk to them in certain ways about certain things, like they think I need to be taught a lesson.

This isn't important.

I don't want this shit on my regular blog.

They are preventing me from having a good life.

They won't stop.

They said I wasn't all that.

They might be taking advantage of me, like I am bad, and threaten me if I post on a special problems blog in detail.

cont.

They keep being picky if I disagree with them now and said the prolonged "it."

I'm getting treated like this is my life.

I hope things didn't get worse overall.

I spite those people.  "Oh, lah dee dah, this thing is all about me 'feeling good.'"  It's not just that anything slipped.  I probably don't like them especially, anyway.

You know, I have schoolwork to do, and this seems like a diversion when I'm tired of it.  I only have finals left, it seems, some homework, too.

It seems thing were carefully taken care of, but, if they dislike how I act, they can make it worse.

Some people seem worthless to talk to and they think they get the silver lining for how they are.

The people involved monitoring me in private seem to be letting this happen, an older lady I like being badly and inappropriately stimulated.

The people monitoring me in private and others involved think they can just do whatever they want with me.  It's bad news of what's on their mind, like making an announcement, of how to ruin my life, for picky reasons, "just in case."

Maybe, more rest/sleep will help.

I sorta phased out doing my math homework.  2 days left.  I don't want to take more general studies, now.  I also have to get to my speech and start memorizing using flash cards.

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It seems like people want to know if certain races feel certain things as well as other races.

Some people think if I talk about this stuff that I won't get what I was gonna get.  That just proves they don't care about my future but want to control it.

It seems like something is wrong with the older lady I like, partially according to evidence from different people, but it seems like they are perpetuating it.

An older lady I like is nice to me, but people keep acting like they are flirting with her to be more important than me.

America is not a safe place to live, and there are other races serving as racists in other European countries, too.

cont.

But don't flail about and ruin it for all Asians.

I wonder why some Southern Europeans aren't as natural as others.  Who cares if it's not Greece but Italy?  I think they did something wrong in noticing fairer races, like they are fairy princesses.  What I get racially is that other people have certain things in place authentically and they just do something more unique.  I don't really want to be them.  Being multiracial must have some benefits.  Well, if you think about Europeans as kids, maybe.

Many people started following or used to follow the notion that Late Boomers are the only people who are worth it, now primarily when it comes to me.

People have a fit if I notice their mistakes and bring me as an enemy in the big picture, though, if I died, they will not have anything to gain, in this way.

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"Inside Out"

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They are acting like I'm really wanting to complain to or about the older lady I like.

but who cares about you?

but, no, I can't say no

So, I'm not the one who made a big deal out of this.

I wouldn't say the world is made for this.

I can't trust the people watching me in private.  They are in on being against me.

People think there has to be one exploited, famous person and to make it an older lady I like so I can't have as good a relationship with her now.

I need to lie down.

Looks like everyone gets away with it!!!

I was in the middle of something, and, like I said, someone was super annoying and always acts like I'm bad, it seems.

I feel like something's killing me.  Make sure you remember Central Florida / Orlando.

Supposedly, this has reached the older lady I like.

They just "have" to think that I'm arguing.

Bad, Lazy White People

The people monitoring me in private said I was the one with the problem.

Someone just invalidated everything I said and set me off.

Why would anyone want me to suffer?   Do some actions come in packages?

I thought supposedly things were already okay.

Why can't I just not take you seriously?

Why is everyone looking to make sure I suffer? and like I'm gonna submit?

Did you know an older lady I like worries and supposedly gets badly and inappropriately stimulated at any suggestion, but for me I guess I have to look out for bad, serious operations at any little hint?

At least, it's interesting to know something about.

I don't think anyone needs you.

I don't know, but it looks exactly like this.

You did do something wrong because it was wrong to think to punish me for no reason.

People want to think I did something wrong.

People are lying about what I posted here because they feel guilty.

I didn't invite anyone into doing these problems to my life.  They are crazy like metal detectors.

People think I'm not perfect and keep coming in and finding ways to say, while the older lady I like deserves to be badly and inappropriately stimulated, I should be guarded from feeling anything or I'm worthless.

I am worried that the people monitoring me in private act like I'm bad and have a problem just because they want to make sure.  Like, I'm well-intended and alone, but one thing amiss maybe to them and they pop up.

Update

I added a Me Online page to My Stuff.

I added a new Instagram post.

They think I am some selfish object that wants pleasure.

More wasting of my time making up reasons an older lady I like should be more and more badly and inappropriately stimulated.

Lonely

I lost my relationships.

I'm kinda hoping to find happiness in school, but I don't want life to pass me by.

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I'm thinking of going locally.  I looked online, and it seems more fun to go in person.  I couldn't find much online.

I guess.... I got up to eat.

Also, I didn't have "hard feelings" on anyone.  I was careful what I posted.  I guess it's over.

A Bit Tired

Maybe, I should rest...  I have math homework and later a speech.

All the things that supposedly mattered ... don't matter.

Someone didn't keep their nails nice and got mad and ruined mine much later.

The older lady indicated it was okay I had a relationship with her and her not be exploited.

It's all over.

...signs of badly and inappropriately suggesting knowing about an older lady I have a "relationship" with.

They are being selfish singling her out like she's "special" in selfish ways and overriding my relationship with her.  They picture her like a toddler.

People keep making up problems about an older lady I like.  They think they are the one in control.

People think if I thought of something when I posted, like them, like they have something on me.  They think I can't defend myself and must submit.

People are trying to make an older lady I like not like me.

I feel like my life was stolen from me.

If you don't do dance...

...which seems like it can be a lot of work for some people, then what do you do?

People think there is something wrong with me having a relationship with the older lady I like without this stuff in the way.

How often do you go to Disney World?

and what other activities do you engage in?

I get to feel guilty about "home sweet home" like I'm enjoying a relationship or I'm not working on my own.

again

She was "under the radar" from things like this, but people can change that for her.

"Enough Is Enough"

When you make friends, you don't always have expiration date set from the start.

I don't really try to force anyone to talk to me, but I talk about it.

I know people did it to my relationship.  They poked into my business and were like, "Oh... Christina's relationship doesn't have an expiration date, now."  Then, they ruined my relationship by badly and inappropriately arousing her by having the whole world thinking about her all the time indefinitely.

So, I'm hearing from different sources things that pertain to this.  I don't know what to say, but I'm just being upfront/honest that if someone says something I can't just not talk about it because they said it...  I guess any source is credible, too...

What people did was notice what they let themselves notice and acted coy that the lady, who is older than me, who has a relationship with me ... that she should just be badly and inappropriately stimulated all the time instead of me having a relationship, like it doesn't matter anyway.  They are mean to me a lot, prior and otherwise, some of them.

So, they want to take her away from me forever and they suggested she intended to have a relationship with me, "forever," and therefore they made it so that because she was dedicated to me that she doesn't have to do it, though they fell over at the thought that she's not really gonna do it then and still are messed up about what they did.

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F.Y.I., I even don't drink alcohol because I want to not lose any more brain cells, but maybe I already lost too many, more than some other people.