People want an older lady I like to get to feel like she is set apart from everyone else in the world as a naked child swinging her arms slumping over standing saying with a grin, "I don't know!"

I wonder if they want everyone to start ruining themselves with drinking, too.

They want her to be inappropriately stimulated and felt for for her underground fame.


However, they are going in and cutting out and labeling my private emotions so I can't have them anymore nor get new ones.

They exploited the older lady I like unnecessarily so she could not feel comfortable caring about my underground fame I had first naturally more but connected to being monitored in private though.