Things are worse these days, in coinciding ways that I have a better life overall now, clean.  I'm gonna get an AA in 1 year, I'm teaching myself violin myself finally, I don't keep getting a new blog, my Facebook is cool, the "IMDb" forum is going well, I am more into my plan to move to another country in Europe and learn an instrument which is Germany and violin, I made a concert to the German orchestra in NYC, I'm making deviled eggs and eating better, school made me healthier mentally and physically and emotionally and opened me up to the truth of the world and gave me ideas to be better, my music is getting better again in ways...